𝐓𝐈𝐀
Everything was dark; I couldn't see anything, but I could feel one thing; my hands were tied. I wanted to scream for help, but my throat is stuffed with something. It was suffocating. I really hate feeling like this. The anxiety of being buried alive is drowning me in my own misery.
"Am I going to die again?"
I feel so helpless. It hasn't been a week and I'm already experiencing death, again. Why is my life so pathetic? And what's worse is when I heard voices coming towards me, it was more than one. I can feel them touching me. I tried to kick whomever it was for doing this to me, but to my dismay, the person slammed my head against something hard—I don't know what it was, but it was enough to send ringing in my ears. I was treated worse than an animal. I was horrified.
"It hurts. It hurts so much."
No matter how hard I tried, my voice would not come out. It was pointless to cry when I couldn't even do anything on my own. The sound of flesh being ripped apart, the smell of fresh blood. The fact that I imagined what it looked like only by hearing and smelling it was terrifying. I was hoping that I was wrong. Please, let me be wrong.
My head is throbbing, my whole body is aching, I can't seem to see or do anything. The last thing I remember was talking to Serina. Wait, she called me Tia. Did she realise who I was and decide to punish me for deceiving her? My blood boils in anger, but then again, I have no right to do that. I am a nobody.
"Just why are you doing this to me?"
It was useless. Crying and pleading seem so worthless. Nothing is going to be alright. Nobody is going to help me. Knowing that fact, I can't help but feel terrified. What's even worse is when something hard gets pierced on my leg as I scream in horror. Let this nightmare end. I can't do this anymore.
"Please stop. It hurts."
I was being tortured, alive. When the person began fiddling with my fingers, I was extremely horrified. What if they decided to cut my fingers off? The thought of that seriously made me lose my mind. But what makes me feel chills the most is when I finally realised that whoever, whatever it is in front of me wasn't a human. I swear to God I could hear growling. I don't want to believe it, but my heart is beating so crazily I feel like it's going to burst.
"clack!"
With that sound, the thing that has been tying me up disappears, along with the blindfold that has been covering my eyes and mouth. I had expected it, but seeing it with my own eyes It was horrifying. I could feel warm liquids running down my torso. I did not want to acknowledge it since I knew fully well that it was my own blood. It hurts so much. seeing that make me gag in horror. I was so sure that it was ripping apart the flesh of a human since I saw a lifeless body next to me without a head.
"No, I don't want to die."
I was terrified that I would end up like that person. I was fully aware that I was trapped, with nowhere to flee. it was unbelievable, so frightening that I trembled in fear. I could move my body, but even if I wanted to run, I couldn't do anything. The thing—the creature, its appearance was so unsightly that I don't know how to describe it. so disfigured, so hideous, ghastly. I can't bring myself to look at it since I was too scared. I feel like I was thrown into a monster den to be their food. I was afraid, knowing that fact terrorises my own body. But still, I don't want to die. At least, not like this. I don't want to die regretting doing nothing while I could still fight for my life.
"Don't give up on me now!"
I wanted to run away, but I couldn't feel my legs. I was desperate, but seeing the condition of my legs, I don't know if I could ever get out of this place alive.
"Save me. Please save me."
It was pointless, I know. But I refuse to die like this. It was just for a brief second, but the creature suddenly turned its head towards me. It was staring at me for I don't know why, titling its head while it made its way towards me. No, please no. I can't help but curse myself for being so stupid. Why is this happening to me? Why can't I just be happy? But then again, if I died here, wouldn't everything end just as I wished for? Maybe by dying, I could finally wake up from this horrible nightmare. I want to believe that so badly. I don't understand why my body refused to give up. I was terrified, shaking uncontrollably, but still, I wanted to live.
My body wanted to fight.
I wanted to live. Even as a different person, I wanted to be alive. Is it wrong for me to be wishful?
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The moment I opened my eyes again, I was shocked to see the creature being torn apart by something else. What is happening? Is there something more dangerous than this creature? I was deeply terrified. I couldn't hold back my tears as I saw my savior. It was a black panther. It was smaller than the creature, so I wonder how it became so strong to kill something bigger than it. I was too stunned to even do anything, but I was relieved to see the creature dying helplessly in front of me, with its mouth wide open.
It was horrifying indeed.
I was glad. I am thankful to be alive. I wonder why the black panther saved me, but I was grateful.
"Thank you."
Even if it doesn't understand me, I just wanted to show my gratitude. The black panther walked towards me as it licked my face. Somehow, I was scared that it might actually want to eat me too. but when I saw it eyes, I was sure that this little black panther is coming to save me. Its golden eyes were staring into mine as I collapsed to the dirty ground, slowly becoming unconscious again.
[BAMMM]
I heard something fell, huh? I felt like I was stung by something as I jolted awake, only to find myself alive, without scratches. Wait, what the heck is happening? I was so worried that I was on the verge of dying, but then where was I? And what's even weirder is that there were people laughing and smiling as they walked past me. I was dumfounded. Was I really dead? When did I become a ghost? I don't know why, but this feels like deja vu. It's like I've been here before, but I'm not sure.
"Oh."
How could I forget? I seriously can't believe how I forgot about this.
"NRVANA"
I don't know why I feel so emotional being here. I mean, I did go here the first time I died. Wait, did I die again? Is this really the place where people go after dying? I seriously don't know. But for me being here right now, I'm grateful. After everything that I just went through, being here makes me feel so alive.
"Come to NRVANA, where you will find peace."
A woman suddenly appeared in front of me, saying those words. I was confused about what she meant by that. A sudden wave of emotions hits me at the same time as a memory I never thought I had came flashing back. Everything that I had forgotten started to fill my mind one by one. And seeing the woman again, I finally remembered. She was the same person the first time, and she was the one who told me to come to NRVANA. She was showing me that there's still hope. I wanted to believe that it was the truth. I can't help but believe her words. If only I were given the chance to start again, I would do my best to seek NRVANA. The only way to find peace, the solution to this unbreakable nightmare.
"NRVANA."
I breathed as I had made up my mind. If I'm going to die in the end, I might as well die trying rather than doing nothing. After experiencing such torture, I don't think I would want to stay long in The Neutral. After all, I don't belong there in the first place, so why would I stay? Nobody even cared if I was gone. They would be thrilled with me out of the picture. If I'm going to live, I should leave that place. That damn horrible place. I wanted to live once more, to feel what it was like to be alive.
"Come to NRVANA, and your wish will be granted."
The woman spoke again as she stared at me with loving eyes. I wonder why it makes me so sad. Hearing her say that, a thought suddenly crossed my mind; a wish.
"I want to go back home."
I couldn't stop my tears from coming out, but now I finally found my purpose. I wanted to believe that if I did attain NRVANA, I might go back; to my real home, the place where I truly belong.
Until then, I just need to endure a little more suffering.
𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐀
It was a stupid move, but I had to do it. But what if she really is the real Tetiana? What would happen to me if she found out that I was the one who sent her to her death? The moment I began to regret everything, it was already too late. What should I do if she really did end up dying?
I'm scared.
"What if they found out that I... killed her?"
I don't want to be punished by the Elders. I hate this feeling so much. I hate her so much that I wish she would just die, but why did you come back? Why did you have to go and lose your memories? Why did you make me feel so... stupid? Tetiana, why are you doing this to me? It was bad enough that I had to put up with being your stupid pawn every day, despite the fact that I am higher in rank than you.Why? Why is it always me who ends up suffering? Why? I was a fool to believe that Tetiana was my friend. She was a freaking snake. She was disastrous.
"I hate you so much."
Why is it always me who ends up being broken?
After seeing the new Tetiana that came back from The Norm acting so different, I thought that we could finally be friends. I thought that she would finally be good to me. To focus only on me, to see me. to know that I have been by her side all along. But why did you go and make things more complicated? I hated it when you met Gally. I hated it so much when you went to the infirmary and talked to the Assist. Why? Why did you go and do things that you've never done before? You make me angry. Tetiana, why are you doing this to me? Why are you torturing me? although I never intended to go this far. I can't help but feel satisfied.
I knew something was wrong with her the moment she said she wasn't Tetiana.
I refuse to believe it, but how come a person just changes so drastically? It was absurd. No matter how I think about it, she is clearly acting. Because she knows that everyone will end up hating her for everything that she has done. Perhaps she wanted to start anew? I wonder about that. Tetiana? It is not possible. I wanted to see how much she would go. Because in the end, losing her memory doesn't make her a better version of herself.
𝐑𝐄𝐃
"What are you doing? You look like you've done something really bad."
I can't help but to tease her since she looks like she really did do something bad.
"What are you talking about? I didn't do anything."
Serina insisted, as I noticed how nervous she was. Okay, that was really weird. I mean, if she really did do something, why is she so afraid? She's Alpha. She could get away with anything. So why did she look so worried as if she had just killed someone?
"You know, I could tell when someone is lying, right?"
I decided to pry since she looked so funny with her palms sweating and all. but she didn't want to tell me anything. That makes me even more curious. What bad thing has she done for herself to be so restless? I wonder about that... but then again, Serina was not a person who could harm someone. So I wonder why she looked so troubled? Although I still think that she did something, I decided to ignore it since she is harmless and thinking about Tetiana, I wonder what happened to her. I mean, I did feel guilty after hurting her before, but I couldn't help it. I was pissed that she didn't remember me. How can she easily forget everything? How can she act like everything didn't happen? It makes me angry just looking at her now. It hurts me enough that she chose Aiden over me, but I can't argue with that since he is truly better than me in everything. I seriously don't mind being her tool, just to see her smile. But after seeing her again, losing her memory, I was indeed furious.
The reason Tetiana was taken to The Norm in the first place remains a mystery, however. Nobody knows what happened to her. She just suddenly disappeared, leaving a note saying that she was chosen. I don't even know what that was supposed to mean. How can she just go? She knows fully well that when you go there, you will end up dying. So why?
"Look at her! Oh my goodness!"
My head was filled with Tetiana, so I wondered why the heck was everyone gathering in the middle of a hallway. but upon seeing her, Tetiana's lifeless body as she lay there, unconscious. I stumbled to my feet. Her arm was turning blue. I think that was my fault. shit! Tetiana's whole body was covered in blood and wounds. And the thing that surprised me the most was the thing pierced in her leg. It was no ordinary thing; it was the syüxa fangs.
The creatures that consume humans to stay alive.
But it was impossible. Syüxa is extinct. Even if some manage to stay alive, it's impossible for them to be near the school, let alone The Neutral. So how did she end up looking like that? I was confused, but looking at Serina wearing a blank expression after witnessing all that is even more disturbing. Why didn't she look a little bit shocked? They were best friends, right? But then again, Serina did look like she did something bad. I wonder if this has anything to do with her. If Aiden finds out about this, he will surely be furious. It was a good thing that he had gone to The Nobles to handle some issues.
She seems dead. Is she alive?
It is to be expected, but nobody seems to be helping Tetiana as she lies there looking lifeless. It's not surprising that they don't want to be involved with her. But it's even more surprising that Gally is crying while looking at Tetiana. What the hell is this? It was shocking to see such a reaction since Gally hated Tetiana the most, so why? I mean, even if she did end up forgetting, she would still be the same person, right? I decided help her. But before I was about to move, the Assist came running as they brought Tetiana to the infirmary. They never did this before, let alone help Tetiana.
So why now?