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As soon as we heard the bell, my friends and I started walking to the classroom. The Mock War will start again this week. I'm actually looking forward to today's match, although I don't even know why. The moment she, Tetiana, entered the room with Aiden on her side, everyone became curious. I did too, honestly, because just a moment ago she looked like she didn't want to be near him, and now she's already clinging onto him? I don't know why I am feeling so annoyed. Looking at her weird behaviour is making me think about a lot of unnecessary things. For a moment, our eyes were locked on each other. But when she noticed me, she turned away fast. What the hell? What the heck is her problem?
"Oh look, seems like she finally regained her memory since she's with her boyfriend now."
Rebel smirks as he's also watching Aiden and Tetiana talking. "Ohhhh." Enzo, too, was watching them. I don't know why talking about her annoyed me so much. I just stood there, watching what was happening in front of me with amusement. When Mikhael challenged Tetiana to a fight, I mean, it's amazing how that guy never gives up despite losing to Tetiana every single time. But after seeing the look on Tetiana's face, I don't know what to say. She keeps giving excuses, saying she forgot how to use the sword. What the hell? Why would she even need to use those? She's a bike user. She could just as easily summon her beast, but why is she acting so scared?
"What is wrong with you?"
I don't know why that crossed my mind. But for some reason, Tetiana looks terrified. When she looks petrified for the first time, I could feel goosebumps all over me as I saw the expression she was smacking right now. Wow, I can't believe that I wanted to see her looking so frail. It was a pelasing sight indeed. But the moment she started screaming, I finally came back to my senses.
"Damn, it's about time she summoned the thunder beast."
Kyran mentions this as he looks at Tetiana in disbelief.
Why? 
Why are you not doing anything?
I was really confused, although I shouldn't be. Why the heck am I even indulging myself with her?
"This is getting intense."
Rebel smirked as he enjoyed the sight in front of him. Enzo, too, was staring at Tetiana with worried eyes. Somehow, he looked worried. I wonder why... but something feels weird, definitely wrong. Tetiana never once summoned her beasts. She doesn't even use her ability. Why is she not fighting back? And to make it worse, Mikhael seemed to be losing his mind. He's probably too excited to see Tetiana in that state, and he doesn't want to stop hurting her. It actually made sense.
If I were him, I would have done the same thing—but the moment her eyes locked on mine, I was stunned and shocked.
I was horrified.
I hate this so much. The memories that I have been trying hard to forget, came back to me, gushing into my head as I stared at Tetiana's crying face, screaming in pain. She looks just like her. The way she trembled, the way her eyes were calling for help. I can't help but be reminded of my past, the past that has been haunting me still. I have no idea what's going on with me, but my body moves on its own.
She looks terrified. She was crying.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?"
Mikhael yelled as the beast disappeared. Shit, what the heck is wrong with me? Everyone was already staring at me, even Tetiana. She looked shocked and thankful. I think? I don't know why I feel so furious. Seeing her in that state somehow made me boil in anger. but why? I seriously have no answer to that. I could feel my flames surrounding my body as I walked towards Tetiana. For fuck's sake, what is wrong with me?!
"Move before I blow your head off."
It felt like I was being controlled. my body, my mind, and what I'm saying. I feel weird watching myself do things that I never once thought of doing. The moment my arms were wrapped around Tetiana, she flinched. She seemed surprised. I did too. I honestly have no idea what is going on inside my head. I couldn't care less about the great Aiden watching me carry his girlfriend away right now. I have no idea what I am doing. I could sense everyone's eyes on me, but I couldn't really understand myself either, so I decided to leave.
This is so embarrassing.
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I decided to keep my mouth shut since I had no courage to ask him—Edgar-lookalike—why he helped me. I mean, I was so sure that he hated me? So why did he do that? for me?
"Xian, what the heck happened?"
Yareli snapped as she seemed to be glaring at me. I didn't realise that he brought me to the infirmary until I heard Yareli's voice. Is that his name, Xian? A part of me was happy to know that his name was not Edgar. I don't know why. He saved me, and I'm really thankful to him.
"Mock war. Michael went violent.."
Xian simply said, as the girl sighed in return. They seem worried, but I don't know.
"I'm sorry."
I do realise that I was being a nuisance. I mean, it's not like I wished for this to happen to me, but for some reason, bad things keep happening to me. I keep attracting bad omens.
"Just why the hell didn't you use your powers? Can't you stop being so troublesome?"
Yareli added as she angrily took something to clean my wounds.
Hearing her say all that makes me feel... scared. Why did she have to be so mean? The fact that Xian has also been staring at me for a while now makes me feel uncomfortable.
"She's not angry with you, she's just worried."
Lalitha smiles at me as she assures me that it was okay as Yareli sighs in annoyance. Yeah right, she doesn't look worried at all. At least not towards me. I was sure of it.
"I don't have those kinds of powers."
I sigh, again. Even if I keep saying the same thing over and over, they still won't believe me because they are too obsessed with the fact that I am Tetiana. when the truth is, I'm not. It's like they refuse to believe the truth just to make themselves feel better.
"It's absurd to completely lose your memory and become a totally different person."
Yareli added as she glared at me. She did have a point, but I am seriously not Tetiana, so it makes me furious when she says that without explaining why she seems to be hating Tetiana so much. I don't understand what is wrong with all these people. Did it never occur to them that I might be someone else? Who coincidentally shared the same face as their mortal enemy?
Ugh, I hate this so much.
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"Just how many times do I have to tell you?! I'm not Tetiana, for goodness's sake! I don't even know where I am or what this place is. Please, I also want to go home. Why is that so hard to understand? I don't have any idea who Tetiana or Anna is. Whatever it is, stop accusing me of something I didn't do. Why do you hate her so much? What did she even do to you?"
I was surprised when Tetiana started raising her voice. She looked exhausted. I mean, why did she say all that? It's bugging me. What makes her say all of that? It's absurd. Why is she saying that she's not Tetiana? and home? What does she mean by that? She seemed genuine. I don't know if she's just acting or if she's really telling the truth. It's troubling. When she started crying again I can't help but feel confused. She does seem like a totally different person from Tetiana but it doesn't make sense.
"It hurts. It was terrifying."
The moment she said that, I came to realise one thing: the truth. She was telling us the truth. I'm not sure why I'm feeling this way, but I was certain. Although it makes me confused and I have a lot of questions. But seeing her condition right now, I don't think I could ask her about it. I will wait for the day I can finally ask her—who she really is.
I decided to leave the infirmary since being there is so awkward. Seeing Tetiana breaking down, it was weird. If she's not the real Tetiana, then who the heck is she? Where is the real Tetiana? What happened in The Norm? My mind is full of her. I don't even know why.
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I can't believe I seriously yelled at them, Yareli. I did feel bad, but I also feel like she deserves it. And it seems like she doesn't want to talk to me again after that. It was so awkward.
"Thank God it's not badly wounded. But still, you can't use your left hand for a few days... since we don't know yet the reason behind your weird healing process."
Lalitha explained as I could only sigh in relief. At least I'm not dead. Although the pain was no joke, it was great to be alive. I thanked them again as I left the infirmary. Hopefully, I won't be setting my feet here ever again. It was so awkward after everything that happened. I don't think I could do it again. When I noticed Aiden was walking towards the infirmary, I rushed to the other direction. What does he want from me now? I still can't believe how he just stayed still, watching me as I suffered. Heck, is he even Tetiana's boyfriend? I thought he at least cared for me since I look like Tetiana.
"I'm sorry it took me a long time to find you. It was hard to avoid people's eyes."
It was terrifying when I was being pulled into a dark hallway, but when I noticed who it was, I was relieved. I was overwhelmed with emotions when I finally saw her face again. Gally. She was smiling at me. She is real. I can't believe that I almost believed that it was just my imagination talking to Gally.
"I almost died twice waiting."
I said truthfully as Gally gave me a weak smile, saying how worried she was. Gally finally confessed that her ranking was the reason we couldn't talk to each other. I don't really understand why, but after witnessing how everyone treats Tetiana, I might have an idea. Gally even confessed that the people believed that she was mute even though she just hated talking to them. It was quite shocking how she had been doing that for years without anyone noticing. There were a lot of things I wanted to say to her, but the first thing that came to mind was, NRVANA.
"I need your help."
Gally was confused at first, but I told her everything. About NRVANA: But it seems like she doesn't know about that place. She did say that maybe there's a map, but that kind of information is prohibited. So we're in a pinch. I don't know what else to do right now.
"I'll try my best." Gally urged, and I sighed in response. "but are you really sure about it? I mean, are you sure it will help you go back home?" I wonder about that. but I want to hope that it's real. I want to go back home. The only way I knew was to obtain NRVANA. "It's the only way. Whether it works or not, might as well try. It's better than dying here by the hands of those... scary people. Or worse, monsters."
I said truthfully and shook my head, causing Gally to chuckle. She agreed to help me and even volunteered to go and search for a map or whatever it takes to find a way out of this place. It was nice. Talking to her felt like a dream come true. I was about to say something, but I was caught off guard when I noticed someone had been listening to our conversation. Gally nudges me as she wispers how the person looks dumfounded and speechless. I was terrified. Who might it be? Just thinking about it makes me shiver. I decided to follow Gally's gaze, and I was shocked to see who it was.
"Xian."