We went out of the bathroom together. Gulantang ang ekspresyon ng babaeng nakasalubong namin sa labas. Nahihiya man ay nginitian ko nalang ang babae. Zyan is unbothered like it's a totally normal thing for him.
I gave Lylian's phone to him and then we both went inside the house. Umakyat ako sa kwarto ko to freshen up while he looked for Ryle inside. Hindi kasi namin siya nakita sa pool area. I'm hoping that they will be able to find some clues or evidence sa cellphone ni Lylian. It would greatly help me.
I changed into a new dress after freshening up before going back down. The party is still in full swing. Some guest even decided to strip into their bikini and went swimming in the pool. I got a glass of wine from a waiter passing by. One of Zyan's cousin who was introduced to me earlier came up to me. I greeted her with a smile.
"I know it's none of my business but I know what's up. I accidentally overheard the two of them talking earlier sa kitchen. Zyan's parents will be furious if they find out what's going on. You're putting him in big trouble."
She shook her head in disappointment and then left. Hindi man lang ako nakasagot. I am left dumbfounded at first but I know she's right. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I have thought of this but my own selfishness drove the thought away.
I know I'm jeopardizing Zyan's life by involving him in my mess. I was his fiancée, yes, but that has been long gone the moment the truth about my identity was revealed. I'm not even the slightest bit qualified to be near him or even talk to him. I know. I know all of it very well.
What was I expecting anyway if I will indeed succeed in proving that Lylian and Melynda instigated my murder? That Lylian will be put to jail and everything will be back to how it was before?
Me as the heiress of the Candelanza's? Me as Zyan's fiancée? I must be out of my mind if I'm really convinced that will ever happen. Is it about justice? Since when did I care about justice? Ngayon lang dahil ako na ang biktima. Is this fight even worth it? I no longer belong in this world I once thought was mine.
Zyan... Mindlessly, I know the real reason why I'm doing all this. It's him. It's the desire to be with him like this that's filling my heart with greed. I'm selfish. Wala akong pakialam kahit pa alam ko na hinihila ko lang siya pababa as long as I'm with him. As long as I get to spend time with him like this.
The realization has never been this bitter. Nothing has changed. I am the same self-centered girl who thinks the world revolves around her. Never caring about others and what my actions would do to them. I am still the same evil person that I was. I thought I've changed so much since everything had happened but who am I kidding?
With all the thoughts running in my mind, I didn't even notice where I was going. I have reached the back garden of the house and there I saw Zyan...with Lylian.
"You're my fiancée now, Zyan! Actually, ako lang talaga dapat ang naging fiancée mo kahit noon. It's because of what happened to me that we were misled and we weren't able to meet each other earlier. But we're here now. You and I? We're meant to be. We're destined to be together!”
“You meeting the fake Blaire first was an intervention. It prepared us both for this, for us, for the kind of love that we will have in the future. I know you don't see this yet now but think about it! What if you met me first, di ba? It could have been me you're inlove with!"
Lylian tiptoed and reached for his face to kiss him but Zyan pulled her back down by her arms. He looked at her with nothing but cold eyes.
"It might have been an intervention like you said. But that intervention is the best thing that ever happened to me. That intervention brought her in my life and I'd willingly welcome that intervention with wide arms a million times if that means I'll meet her and be given the chance to be with her."
He turned to leave but then glance at her briefly, "One more thing, even if I'd met you first, there's no way I'd fall for you." Then he left her there with sad and angry emotions on her face.
I stood in the dark with my hand in my heart for all the strong feelings bursting inside me. My tears fell but not because of sadness but because of being overjoyed. There is no doubt in my heart and mind that I love him. I love him so damn much.
I could give up everything right now just for him. In the middle of all the happiness I'm feeling, what Zyan's cousin said flashed in my mind. I wanted to ignore it and just focused on myself and my happiness but I'm trying and I don't wanna be the selfish, self-centered person that I am. Parang bulang naglaho ang saya na nararamdaman ko kanina.
I walked back inside the house and into my room feeling so disappointed in myself, kasi alam ko na pipiliin ko pa rin ang sarili ko. Na kahit pa alam ko na ikakasira iyon ng taong mahal ko, pipiliin ko ang sarili ko dahil ganun akong klaseng tao.
I'm so sorry, Zyan but I can't let you go... I want to stay with you...because my heart is screaming, I love you...
Lutang akong naglakad pabalik sa kwarto ko. I'm no longer in the mood to stay there and mingle with other people in the party. I decided to just shower and go to bed.
The lights in my room were dimmed but I could still clearly see him sitting in my bed. His sillhoutte, his body and stance so familiar that my heart immediately started beating faster. Kakalabas ko lang ng shower at tanging towel lang ang saplot sa katawan.