Athena’s P.O.V.
He sucked my nipples so hard while he was under me and I just couldn’t help myself but to hold the headrest for support. He was under me, but I was the one who was clearly under his spell and intense fervor.
Pero pagkatapos niyon ay gumanti ako. Ako naman ang humahalik sa dibdib niya, pababa sa abs niya. Lahat yata ng pandesal niya ay aking hinalikan, dinilaan at kinagat. I had never been this wild pero wala na akong pakialam. I swiftly looked at his reaction at gano’n na lang ang ngiti ko nang makita kong nakapikit siyang napapaliyad.
As if I would never be contented, I held his crotch inside his trunks. Sa umpisa ay nanginginig ang kaliwang kamay ko hanggang sa nasanay na lang. Sa ginawa kong ‘yon ay napaungol na siya. Mabilis niya akong inangat at muling sinibasib ang mga dibdib ko na para bang wala siyang kasawaan.
Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses pa kaming nagpagulong-gulong sa kama. Pati nga yata ang mapuputing kili-kili ko ay nahalikan na rin niya. At ngayon ngang nasa ibabaw ko na siyang muli, his lips slowly went down to my navel leaving an intimate trail of fear and excitement on my shivering body.
I loved him more than anything else, but the fear made me realize one thing. That as much as I wanted to give in, I just thought… this was not yet the right time for us and I should go back to my senses while I still could.
I’m not yet ready to give everything to him no matter how much I loved him.
“Cristoff, stop!” I said before I totally lose myself to him, as he already removed my pants and was about to remove my remaining undies.
I was catching my breath. Actually, both of us were catching our breaths on our extreme activity with beads of sweat all over our bodies. I knew that even though he was not yet able to remove my undies, he was successful enough to put a finger inside me. I could feel that I was so wet and for that, I twitched my lips.
Sa ngayon, Athena… oo, kaya mo pang pigilan, pero hanggang kailan? my subconscious asked.
I was sure as hell that he was the only man to whom I always thought and dreamt of that I would be giving myself to. But I guessed, it would be much better to wait until after our marriage because that would be an incomparable gift that I could ever give to him. My virginity.
The moment I stopped him was the moment he looked at me like he had just been splashed with cold water on his face. He came back to his senses as well, as the feeling of guilt suddenly crossed his entirely handsome face.
Napatayo siya at bahagyang lumayo sa akin. Napasabunot din siya sa buhok niya, pagkatapos ay napahilamos ang mga palad sa sariling mukha. Hindi siya kaagad nakapagsalita.
Damn, this moment is so awkward!
“I’m s-sorry,” sabi ko pagkatapos kong bumangon at nagsuot ng bra. “I’m not yet ready, Cristoff. I hope you understand.”
Pagkatapos niyon ay umupo ako sa gilid ng kama. He went in front of me and held both of my hands. He even kissed those non-stop.
“No, Athena. You don’t have to say sorry, okay? It’s all my fault. I’m really sorry. I promise, I won’t ever do that again. Please don’t think that I was taking advantage on you,” he looked at my cleavage and probably saw the kiss mark, “oh, God! I even stained your beautiful skin. I’m sorry!” He was so much sincere as he cupped my face before kissing my forehead.
“Hey! It’s fine, Cristoff… really! You don’t have to take all the blame, okay? I understand and it’s my fault too,” I smilingly pecked on his lips. “And this?” I pointed out the kiss mark, “You don’t have to worry about this. I’ll take this as a souvenir. I wouldn’t want to remove this like a tattoo,” I smiled at him. “I’m just going to take a shower,” I hugged him before going to the bathroom—my quick escape from the scenario.
Hindi ko maipaliwanag ‘yong nararamdaman ko pagpasok ko ng banyo. Sumandal pa ako sa pinto nito pagkatapos ay hinawakan ang dibdib ko. My heart literally thumped freaking faster. I almost gave myself to Cristoff and it was only a matter of seconds.
But, I was definitely not ready for now. Tumingin ako sa salamin at malayang pinagmasdan ang aking sarili hanggang sa ang mga mata ko ay napunta na sa namumula pa ring kiss mark. I was so seductive kung kaya’t hindi ko siya masisisi kung hindi na siya nakapagpigil pa.
At least, I was able to stop the evil inside me. Maybe, I just wanted to make sure na wala akong pagsisisihan sa huli. I wanted that intimate thing to be my perfect gift to him kapag kinasal na kami and I would hold on to that promise.
Pagkatapos kong mag-shower, Cristoff was nowhere inside the room. Wala namang terrace sa loob ng kuwarto kung kaya’t kitang-kita ko ang buong paligid and I didn’t have to search for him further.
Hmm, but where did he go? Was he embarrassed of my rejection?
I turned on my cellular phone and saw that it had fifteen voice mails! One came from Daddy, while the rest came from Tyler and Kate.
“Hello, Athena! How’s my unica hija? Tyler informed me that you didn’t come home for two nights already? Is that true? Where did you go? He told me that you’re not even with Kate. You even turned off your phone. I could not reach you and that makes me worried. Call me as soon as you hear this, okay?”
Bakas sa boses ni Daddy ang pag-aalala. I attempted to reply on his number saying I was completely fine, but I didn’t send the message. Baka marami lang siyang maging tanong pa. Well, saka ko na lang siguro siya haharapin kapag bumalik na siya galing California.