"Oh my gosh, for real?"
 
I pouted my lips to prevent myself from smiling. I'm here now at Serenity's condo with stacy and zanaih. They haven't left yet because they want to be able to enjoy here in the Philippines first.
 
"So how's nash?" Zanaih approached me to wait for my answer. I just rolled my eyes to her.
 
It's really good and dads have left, I can party again with my friends. This past few weeks I haven't been able to drink because I don't have anyone with me.
 
I actually don't want to drink alone, I'm not used to going home drunk alone, good thing Serenity agreed for us to drink today. I want to drown in alcohol.
 
"So what's so good about kissing?" I can almost swallow the wine I'm drinking because of zanaih's question. Gosh, doesn't this woman's mouth have a brake?
 
"Hey!" I shouted at it but it just laughed at me and gave me an annoyed look. "Well, uhm yeah? Maybe?"
 
"Ah! You're gay, the harot ha!" As soon as stacy accused me, I was caught in my ear because of her deafening voice.
 
I told them what happened to kane and me yesterday. He hasn't been around for a long time but I still feel like he is.
 
"I thought you weren't going to shoot a classmate, oh, what's this?" Serenity teased me. I pulled it out jokingly. The gaga, then remember!
 
Zanaih and stacy bought beer first because we ran out of what we were drinking. We also got another snack so that we could still have something to eat. Fortunately, Serenity still has stacks of food here.
 
He was too lazy to walk because he drank too much alcohol. I grabbed her collar, she almost fell down due to excessive intoxication.
 
"Do you love him?" She asked, i just stared at her. Thinking about my answer.
 
Do i love him? Well, uh he's not that hard to love. I notice that he's a sweet and kind guy. He also cared about my emotion, even though I teased him, he still teased me.
 
"You know you shouldn't drink alcohol, your alcohol tolerance is low" I changed the subject. I also fixed the clutter and I also said goodbye to them that I was going home.
 
With a shortcut I went through for easier. There wasn't much traffic so the trip was fast, I first went to the coffee shop to buy ours and I also seemed to get ready.
 
After that, I went home. I still have a lot of things to fix, I can't just scatter my clothes everywhere.
 
"Good afternoon ma'am" I was greeted by one of our maids. He seems to have been waiting for me to arrive. I just greeted him before going straight to our room.
 
I just cleaned my body before setting up my skin care routine. Fortunately, daddy bought me my skin care, he said he was consoling me because he sent me here to the Philippines.
 
Speaking of daddy, my cellphone rang immediately so I quickly picked it up and looked at it. Daddy is calling.
 
"Hello dad!" Greetings here.
 
I still know the call here but still no one answers so I'm nervous. I would have dropped the call when I heard another voice.
 
[Hello ma'am, are you relatives of Rowell Kennedy and Maxey Kennedy?] Another voice asked me.
 
"Yes po" I replied here while biting my fingers.
 
[I'm sorry to say but they're gone. They died in, the plane they were on crashed] that's all he said when he called me before he hung up.
 
It was as if cold water had been poured on me because of what I had heard, no! My parents are not dead yet.
 
I started crying, my chest was already tightening because of the crying. Why? Why all of a sudden? I know I'm artistic and have done something bad but it's a bad reward.
 
As I continued to cry the door suddenly opened and it gave birth to kane. He approached me anxiously.
 
"Hey I'm here, love, do we have a problem? Are we okay?" He went closer to me and hugged me. I also hugged her as she continued to cry. He kissed my forehead.
 
I don’t know how I got here in my bed. All I know is that I was crying earlier while kane and I hugged.
 
"Kane are mommy and daddy. They're gone" I started crying again. Kane immediately hugged me to calm me down.
 
I didn’t realize the time, it was midnight. Kane still forces me to eat but he just doesn't force me, I have no appetite.
 
I was on top of him while still quietly sobbing, he arranged my runaway hair and in that position I finally fell asleep.
 
I was in another room when I woke up. This room is familiar to me. I immediately stood up to look for kane but I also immediately stopped to see who was with me here.
 
"Tita amy ..."
 
It approached me and made me sit down. I know they already know what happened to mommy and daddy. None of us are speaking. We can only see sad faces.
 
"My deepest condolences amber, when you need help we're just here, huh? Remember we're your family" when my aunt broke the silence.
 
I also went out of my room and immediately went to kane, he was sitting in the living room while deep in thought. He immediately greeted me when he saw me.
 
I didn't realize that we were in their house, my relatives in other countries told me that the bodies of mommy and daddy would be cremated. I can't go there because I still have a lot to do here.
 
"I already texted our professor, I said you can't come in first" he began. I hugged him and felt the heat of his body.
 
I feel like I’m weakening with circumstances. I'm tired, my chest is so tight. I feel like my body will collapse at any moment. It hurts, especially since what happened is still fresh.
 
"I'm tired" i said. I was so weak, both physically and emotionally. I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of everything! Get me mom, dad.
 
As kane said, I didn't go in first. Just me and Mr. and Mrs. Santiago is here at home, kane entered. 'At first he didn't want to because he said he wanted to watch over me and take care of me but I forced him. I can do it alone. I still can.
 
"I miss you mommy and daddy" when I talked to the photo of mommy and daddy. The first photo we were together and we were very happy.
 
I took a nap first when I felt drowsy. I've only been crying these past few days, that's why I always feel sleepy.
 
I woke up because of the excessive light of the beam of light. I didn't realize that I was sound asleep, I also noticed that kane was already in the room. He was sitting next to me and sleeping, it looked like he had come home earlier.
 
I quickly went to the dining area. I felt hungry so I immediately looked for something to eat, but I also immediately went upstairs when I couldn't find any food. I still saw kane as if looking, but he also stopped when he saw me.
 
"Hey love, do you need anything?" He asked using his sweet voice. Argh! If I hadn't been going through that much, I might have been shivering.
 
I approached him and sat down next to the bed. "I want food" I said before sniffing. I heard him chuckled because of my action.
 
"Okay, all right. What food does my baby want? I'll cook for you" I looked at the wall to think about what I wanted to eat.
 
"I want pasta!" I said happily.
 
He tapped my head before he leave. I was stunned. Am i really like this? Why am i so clingy ?!
 
Kane also came back when he cooked the pasta. He cooked easily but I can already smell the deliciousness. I looked at him as he served me. Hey, I hope we're always like this, that's okay.
 
I could not promise him that I would still be this kind to him. But if he persisted, I might fall for him.
 
After I ate, he washed what I ate. Hmmm, if my husband is like that, I will really fall. He is very husband material, but when I think of him as my wife I feel sorry for him. I didn't know how to cook, even when cooking eggs I couldn't.
 
What if he leaves me? What if he trades me for a woman who can do the things I can't do? What if he loses me?
 
"Are you sleepy?" He asked. He was fixing the pillows that were messy when I slept.
 
I shook my head. I'm still not sleepy because I just woke up.
 
"Kane do you like me?" I asked him, and he looked at me before speaking.
 
"Yes i do" I blinked a few times because of what he said. Did he just say yes? I think i need oxygen!
 
"U-uh t-I'm asleep" I stuttered. Gosh! I heard him chuckled, what is happening to me!
 
I woke up early today, I also noticed that kane was no longer beside me. She seemed to have entered, and our maid immediately greeted me in the kitchen. I saw them sipping his coffee before greeting me.
 
"Good morning hija" they greeted me so i greeted them back. I still don't go in today because I'm lazy, besides I don't have to go in every day. Unless you have inspiration coming in.
 
I’m here now in their pool, I’m just sitting here in the chair while watching the flowers bloom. I want to breathe first because I'm always in the room.
 
When I got bored, I went to the bathroom to take a shower. I don't want to just sulk here, and no matter how much I cry, mommy and daddy won't come back.
 
I put some cream on my face, then I just lay on our bed and watched a movie. I don't have anything else to do here so I just do Netflix.
 
Hours passed and kane's finally here. He will just come home from school, it's a good thing he's here. It's annoying when no one is with you.
 
He kissed my forehead before he changed his clothes. We have a mini closet so that's where he changed his clothes.
 
He cooked food first so I continued watching netflix first. I only watch Horry Potter, because that's my favorite movie.
 
After a minute, Kane returned. He cooked pork porridge. It's good and he only cooked a little because I might eat more. Like i said, I'm on my diet. Don't break it.
 
"Do you need anything?" He slowly stepped forward to me. I just shook my head. He was wearing only shorts and no top.
 
I looked at him seriously as he walked into the bathroom. I saw him brush his teeth. I was just lying here on the bed while waiting for him to finish, stacy and zanaih also called me. Hello, after that we talked.
 
I aslo invited them to go here but they refuse, it's embarrassing because they might just mess up. Besides, we can meet at Serenity's house.
 
 
I was asleep when I felt drowsy. I hugged my pillow and slowly close my eyes. I even had a dream that I was with my parents. It was just a great dream.
 
"Goodnight" I heard kane whisper to me.
 
:)