Chapter 30
Lately I've been acting very, very weird. I get too clingy always. I crave for so many different weird foods. My head's always shaking every morning and night.
Tulad na lang ngayon, kakagising ko pa lang pero nahihilo na ako. 'Di naman ako kulang sa tulog, busog na busog naman ako parati. This is freaking weird.
I feel like something would come out on my mouth so I rushed to the toilet to vomit. I vomit and vomit until wala na akong maisuka maliban sa laway ko. Pawis na pawis ang noo ko at nanginginig na rin ako.
CJ's not here. Maaga siyang umalis dahil may kailangan daw siyang  aasikasuhin. I don't know what is it and I didn't bother to ask. 
I also can't understand myself lately. My mood is also shakey. Sometimes I'm clingy but also sometimes I'm irritated with something. Pati na rin si CJ napag-bubuntungan ko ng galit ko.
Tumayo na ako at nag shower. I need a cold shower to ease this irritating feeling. After I showered I changed my clothes into tattered jeans and fitted crop top. I blow dried my hair and curl the end of it. I like it. I applied make up and spray perfume. 
I smiled at the mirror. I look radiant today. I'm going to my OB today. I have a hunch on what's happening with me. I just need her confirmation.
Knowing there's a baby growing inside my stomach excites me. This will gonna be a best gift for CJ's upcoming birthday.
I open my car and drove my way to the clinic. Sa kalagitnaan ng biyahe ay tumawag sa akin si CJ. 
"Yes love?" I smiled even though he won't sees it. I'm just really happy today.
"Where are you baby?" He ask softly.
"I'm out somewhere,"
Alam kung naka-kunot na ang noo niya ngayon. "Out? Somewhere? Where? Did I told you to not go out of the house right? Love naman, your not feeling well!"
"Calm down love, I'm okay. I'm safe." Natatawang sabi ko. "By the way, hows the meeting?"
"Problem solved so don’t worry about it anymore, okay? But I can't come home in lunch. May gagawin pa akong importante kasi,"
Napasimangot ako. "Why? I miss you!"
"Dinner na lang tayo mamaya. I'll bring you to my favorite place. We'll eat there, you okay with that?"
Bumalik ang ngiti sa mga labi ko. "I'm definitely okay with that. I'm driving love, later na lang ‘kay?"
"Okay. See you later. Love you."
"Love you too." Then I ended the call because I arrive already.
Lumabas ako at naglakad papasok sa clinic ni Dra. Cuarteros. She's been my OB for almost two years now that's why I trusted her.
"My, my, you look blooming Isha!" She said and kiss me on my cheeks. I did the same too.
"Well thanks doc! You too!"
"Sit there hija. I'll just check your blood since you said your vomiting and craving right? Did you tried PT?"
I shook my head. "Hindi pa doc. I'm afraid."
She smiled. "That's normal but I have here, you should tried this also. May instructions na riyan, you just have to do it and go back here after. Doon ang banyo hija,"
Nanginginig ang kamay na kinuha ko ang pregnancy test na hawak niya. I wanted to try this but I'm afraid that this signs is just a false hope. I want to have a baby. I am ready. 
Kinakabahan man ay ginawa ko pa rin. I pee and put it in the PT since it was said in instructions and I just have to wait for a minute it says before the results came.
Pumikit ako ng mariin at taimtim na nagdasal. After a minute of waiting. I slowly opened my eyes to see the result. 
Nanlamig ang buong katawan ko sa nakita. My tears started to fall. 
Two lines and two lines means positive
I'm pregnant! I'm pregnant! 
Humikbi ako. I'm so happy right now. Lumabas akong umiiyak. Nadatnan ako ni doctora sa gano'ng ayos kaya kinuha niya ang PT at tinignan ito. She laughed.
"But still we need to check you up to make sure at ng maresetahan na kita ng vitamins mo at ng baby mo. We also need to check if how months your baby is...."
I nod and let her do her thing. I waited for minutes. Tulala lang ako at masaya. I wonder what would be CJ's reaction if he found this.
Will he be happy? Sad? Matatanggap niya ba? But I'm sure he will. I'm no doubting his love for me and I trusted him.
"Your five weeks pregnant Elisha. Congratulations hija!"
I smiled. "Thank you doc!"
"This is the vitamins, buy all of this. Look your baby's healthy. If your craving for something, don't hesitate to eat it okay? Be back here after a week for your next check up."
Nagpasalamat ako sa kanya at lumabas na sa clinic niya. Nagpunta akong grocery store so I can buy what I want to eat. After that I put it on the backseat of my car and headed my way to my parents house. I already texted CJ na ro'n ako manananghalian kina mommy. I also inform my parents and they agreed with it.
Balak ko sanang sabihin sa kanilang buntis ako pero naisip ko na mas magandang si CJ ang unang makaalam. So I plan it out.
'Di naman kalayuan ang bahay ng parents ko kaya nakarating ako agad. Sinalubong ako ni mommy. 
"My God! My daughter looks so blooming. Your so pretty anak!" She kiss my cheeks.
"Oh my, thanks mommy. Ikaw din naman!" I wink at her and she laughed.
"Pasok ka anak. Wala ang ate mo kasi nakipag date sa asawa niya. Si Andrea lang ang ibinilin sa amin. Si Rutherford naman ay nako ewan ko sa batang iyon,"
Natawa ako. Ate already have a family on her own and Andrea is my pamangkin. She's two years old and a cute healthy baby. 
Naabutan ko si daddy na busy kakalaro kay Andrea. Lolo na talaga siya.
"Hi dad!" Nakipagbeso ako sa kanya.
"Hi tiny Andy!" I kiss her chubby pinky cheeks. Gosh, can't wait lumaki ang anak ko.
"Ta-ta!" She said cutely. 
"Anak, nandito ka na pala. Tara na sa hapag."
Binuhat ko si Andy at dinala sa hapag. Kapag wala si ate ay ako ang nag babantay dito. 
Ako na rin ang nagpakain kay Andy. Habang kumakain kami ay nag usap lang kami. But my parents is so weird today. They will always look at me with a smile plastered on their lips.
"Something wrong?" I ask.
They shook their head and smiled. Napailing na lang ako. Habang malayo pa ang oras ay nanatili lang ako sa bahay at nilalaro si Andy. 
Nang sumapit na ang alas sais ng gabi ay nag paalam akong uuwi na. On my way to the house, I didn't do something but just smiled and think positively.
Nakarating ako sa bahay at nagulat akong may malaking box sa loob. There's a letter too.
Wear this for tonight baby. This will look good on you.
Love,
CJ<33
Napangiti ako. Such a sweet boy. Inilabas ko ang damit sa box. It's a white satin cocktail dress. May heels din do'n na 'di kataasan at may necklace pa. 
I started taking a bath then after that wear the dress and prepare myself in front of the mirror. I just feel like I need to look pretty tonight. I don't know why though.
Pagkatapos ko sa pag aayos ay kinuhanan ko ng litrato ang aking sarili. I put my phone, some make up and my wallet on my handbag.
I don't know why do I feel nervous. Basta sa buong biyahe papunta sa address na  sinabi ni CJ ay kinakabahan ako.
Lumipas ang ilang minuto at sa wakas ay nakarating na rin ako sa dagat. 
I look at the shore and it has a lights, may party? I shrugged. Inayos ko ang damit ko at naglakad na papasok. Hinanap ko si CJ at nakita ko siyang naka-abang sa ‘kin sa entrance.
He smiled and kiss me. "You look stunning in white love."
"Well thanks to you." Natawa ako.
Hinawakan niya ang bewang ko at inalalayan ako papasok sa loob. Napakurap-kurap ako. There's also a band in the mini stage, may mga disco lights sa gitna ng buhangin, may table na may candle sa gitna, flowers and everything. This looks like pinaghandaan talaga niya.
"I want to cover your eyes lagyan ng panyo pero alam ko namang common na 'yon so yeah surprise baby. Hope you will like this. "
Napatakip ako sa bibig ko sa sobrang tuwa. "I'm so happy. Thank you love. You never failed to surprised me. I love you so much."
Iginiya niya ako papasok sa loob at pinaghila ng upuan. Ipinalibot ko ang tingin. This is indeed a nice place, a true paradise, a haven.
"Ito ba 'yong pinagkaka abahalan mo kanina? Umamin ka!"
He laughed. "Yes. I prepared this for you."
"Kumain na nga lang tayo,"
Kinikilig ako okay. Dala ko ngayon ang PT and I wonder what would his reaction. Kinakabahan din ako sa magiging reaction niya.
We ate silently. At nang natapos kaming kumain ay tumayo siya. Nataranta ako.
"Where are you going?" 
"Silly," he kiss the tip of my nose. "I'll sing for you."
Napaawang ang bibig ko nang naglakad siya papuntang stage at kinuha ang microphone. 
He stood up there at kinausap niya ang tao sa likod. They talk for awhile then after that they position themselves. 
There I was an empty piece of a shell
Just mindin' my own world
Without even knowin' what love and life were all about
I remember this song. He sing this to me during the courting days and I don't know why I feel teary eyed.
Then you came
You brought me out of the shell
You gave the world to me
And before I knew
There I was so in love with you
Bumaba siya sa stage at lumapit sa pwesto ko. I noticed na natigilan ang mga tao sa paligid at nanood sa amin.
Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at ngumiti sa akin. Hinila niya ako.
"Wait, what is this? Where are you taking me?"
He just smiled and led me up to go to the mini stage.
You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I'm feelin'
You gave me a meaning to my life
Yes, I've gone beyond existing
And it all began when I met you
He held my hand and intertwined with his hand. He kiss the back of my left hand.
"You remember this place love?" He ask.
Ipinalibot ko ang aking mata sa paligid at napasinghap ako. I do realize this is the place where we first met.
"This place was indeed a true paradise for me because this is was the place we first met. And my love for you all began when I met you. I'm sorry for everything I've done. I'm sorry for hurting you, God knows how much I regretted what I did to you. I break you and everytime I heard you crying, I felt like I'm also dying." Huminga muna siya ng malalim.
Napatakip ako sa bibig dahil naiiyak na rin ako.
"Thank you for being understanding and thank you for accepting me. I won't promise to not hurt you but I promise to love you always. I won't miss this second chance and I will give my everything to you."
I gasped and my eyes widened in shock on his next move. Nanginig ang tuhod ko at nag uunahan sa pagbagsak ang mga luha ko.
He... He knelt down and showed me a box of engagement ring.
"M-Maria Elisha will you marry me?"
He look at me with nervousness evident in his face. His hands are trembling also. The ring is so freaking nice with a diamond in the center of it.
I cover my mouth and nod. "Yes. Yes love, I will marry you."
Dahan dahan niyang isinilid ang singsing sa ring finger ko at saktong sakto lang talaga 'to. It seems like he already plan this so much.
"Omg sa wakas!"
Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit. Umiyak ako nang umiyak sa balikat niya sa sobrang saya.
Napalingon ako sa sumigaw. My God I was clueless! My friends and family are here. Mikay, Makoy, the other employees of ate's shop, Shane, Montréal’s, they are all here. 
"Thank you love. I love you so much." He kissed me with full of love.
"No. Thank you. You save me from everything. I was not okay until you came. You are my haven from this chaotic world. You are my haven from this hurtful life. I'm glad I came to Cebu because I found the right one, the one whom I want to spend my life with. I'm glad I found my haven in Cebu."
"Congrats soon to be Mr.&Mrs. Montréal!"
CJ hug me from the back and whispered. "I love you soon to be Mrs. Montréal."
Humarap ako sa kanya at may kinuhang envelope sa bag. The results of my check up including my pregnancy test.
"I love you too soon to be daddy." I giggled and laugh at his reaction.
Hindi siya makapaniwalang nakatitig sa papel. Nanlaki ang mata niya at lumuhod. Inabot niya ang tiyan ko at inilapit ang kanyang mukha ro'n. His tears are keep on falling. Garalgal na rin ang tinig niya.
"Hi baby, I'm your daddy. I can't wait to see you soon. I love you and your mommy. I love you both."
Hinaplos ko ang buhok niya at tumingin sa kalangitan. 
I love you both. Hoping to be a good mom and be happy in this soon to be family. I'm so contented and happy with my life now and I wish to remain in this life forever.
This life of mine wouldn't be completely happy without the people who stayed with me from the start of my life up until I will start to build my own family.
I'm broke and I always seek refuge, now I found the one, my safe haven, he's from Cebu. My haven in Cebu.
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This is the last part of MHIC. I hope you like it and thank you for reading. Next will be the epilogue.