"You are an amazing guy. You are caring funny smart and protective. I regret that you met someone like me, a bitch, a selfish brat, a girl who ruined your life" I looked at him. He is sitting next to me. Were still at his room and it's already 11 pm.
"I have a truckload of self doubt that could last me for a lifetime. I was too comfortable with being alone that I might do things on my own will. For a very long time I've conviced myself that I don't need anyone else. Not even my own family. My moods change in a heartbeat. Are you ready to break down? And Stay before you ask for my heart." I added.
He hold my hand and kissed the back of my hand.
"Life is very short. So break your silly ego, love truly and laugh loudly. And I am willing to break down forever babe."
Im not sure if this will make sense but Im trying my best to open up to someone.
"Thankyou for letting me in, in your life."
"I don't still trust you harry and even it's hard I'll try to give you my trust"
"Closer. Fierce. Okey yes that's right"
I bit my lower lips.
"Good!" The photographer keeps on smiling ang claping.
Nilapitan ako ni Maria "That was amazing!" Puri nito.
I just shrugged my shoulder.
"Ay taray!" Natatawang sambit nito dahil sanay na sya saakin di nya pinansin ang pagtataray ko.
"Do we still have a photo shoot?" I ask while my eyes is closed.
"Yes. One more, a commercial shoot with Mr. Alexander Lee"
"Alright" tamad na sagot ko. Sinabihan ko silang umalis saglit para maka pag pahinga ako. I've been working since 6 am up until 1 pm and I haven't eat my lunch yet.
"You look frustrated" Kahit naka sara ang mata ko. I know who is it.
"Just a little bit" sagot ko naman.
Naramdaman ko ang paghawak nito sa aking sentido. He gently massage it and it helps me to relieved stress.
"After this you need to resign. Don't even think of signing another contract cause I will not let you"
Napa ngisi ako.
"Ts. You're still not my boyfriend but you're acting like one eh?"
I heard him smirked. This guy "sooner or later you will be my girlfriend."
"If you say so" labas sa ilong na sagot ko.
"By the way are you still busy? Let's go out tonight"
I open my eyes and face him. "I still have one photo shoot."
He smile "After your photo shoot. Ano--"
"I can't. Im tired. I wan't to rest"
Bumagsak ang balikat nito. Kahit hindi nya sabihin I know nagtatampo sya.
That's why I hate relationship. You'll responsible to meet them at anytime.
"It's okey. Just rest" he looked down.
"Don't give me that look kups. You look like a puppy. Seriously" I almost laugh but I didn't.
"You're making fun of me" pag iinarte pa nya.
I rolled my eyes "Oh cut that shit harry. So gross"
"Whatever. Did you eat already?"
I convulse my head "Not yet."
He grab my wrist "Hey wait where are we going?"
"We're going to eat your late lunch"
Wala na akong ibang nagawa kundi ang mag pahatak sakanya.
We ate at the nearest restaurant. He ordered a lot of food.
"Seriously? You want me to eat all this?"
He nod while smiling "Are you planning to ruin my career?"
He just laugh "Waiter"
A girl approach us. I mean she approach harry. Halatang halata na nag papa pansin ito. She even flip her hair.
Girls never changed. This girl is a pain in butt. She needs to learn her lesson.
I raised my eyebrow habang busy sya sa pakiki pag fling kay kupal.
I watched them. Trying to figure out what the hell she's trying to do.
"Is there anything I can help sir? I can recommend the best selling food here to you sir"
She continue talking and flipping her hair infront of Harry.
"Excuse me?"
She answer "Yes ma'am?"
But she didn't even look at me.
"Excuse me?" I repeated.
"Yes ma'am?" This time naka tingin na sya saakin but she's not smilling anymore.
"Will you please stop flirting around and serve our foods properly?" I raised my voice trying to have her attention.
"Clarrise"
I gave harry a death glare. Isa ka pang gago ka. Ayoko sa lahat ay ginagawa akong tanga.
"What are you anyway?"
"Waiter" naka yukong sagot nya.
"Shouldn't you ask us both what we want to eat before flirting around?" I can't help but to raised my voice.
"Ma'am is there any problem?" Lumapit saakin ang isang babae. I think this is their manager.
"No th--" I cut him off and gave him a cold stare.
"This girl is flirting around and you know what? I think you need to fire her." Ibinagsak ko ang hawak kong wine glass.
Inalis ko ang cap na suot ko at shades.
"Ms. Clarrise !" Gulat na sambit ng kanilang manager.
"This restaurant is horrible"
Then I walk out.
The nerve.
"Clarrise" I didn't look back. Oh ghaddd. Thankyou for ruining my day kupal.
I shouldn't let him enter my life in the first place.
"CLARRISE" He shouted kaya I look back.
"What?" Mahinahon na tanong ko trying to calm myself.
"What you did is wrong!" Galit na sigaw nito.
Natawa ako ng mapakla "So what you did is right? Oh yea. That's right"
Disbelief was written all over his face. "I can't believe this clarrise! Stop being harsh! Stop making people suffer! It's time for you to change!"
I laugh "With or without anyone's approval. I will continue to be who I am. Even if it makes other people irritated, suffer. Even if they choose to leave. I dont care! I choose to honor my feelings. I choose to give myself permission to get my needs met!"
You've done enough clarrise.