Chapter#30: Do I have amnesia?
[Jacob's P.O.V.]
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—1 week after the Jeju Outing—

“OmO! Why do I just remember that specific moment? Why until Clyde just kissed me inside the bedroom? Did something happen to us? Shoot! Am I taking a bath?” I said as I slapped myself.

I nervously touch my whole body, especially my nipple and my own ass. Am I no longer a virgin?!

“Hey! You, asshole!” I shouted as I glared at Clyde.

“What's that? What's that? What happened to you?” he said so startled while checking my whole body if I was just fine.

I punched him hard before saying, “Did we have sex when we were in Jeju?!” I have a high-pitched question here.

“Hey! Oy! D-don't be like that. No! Nothing! Nothing happened to us!” he said awkwardly while getting confused about what he would reason out...

“All I remember is when we were in bed!” I said while stuttering, “THEN… uh..! You made me hold that thing!” I said loudly then hit him on his crotch.

“Nothing has happened to us! I’m telling the TRUTH!” he said as he tries to catch my hand because it has been seconds since I had started slapping him.

“No! That's what I remember! What you are saying was ridiculous! How can you say that nothing happened to us! Are you going to deny it in front of me? I've already touched it! Fuck it, it was this hard and bit then you’re going to act like there’s nothing! Gosh! So much hate,” I said annoyed at Clyde while gesturing that my hand still marked how big he was.

“Shit you, babe! W-why are you being so nosy? Your sister was just on the other side of the room—“said Clyde as he covered my mouth with his hand.

“What's that big Jacob?” we were surprised when the door suddenly opened while we were in that position.

One of Clyde's hands rested behind my back while the other one was covering my mouth and I anchored one of my hands to Clyde's neck and my other hand gestured as Okay.

“Your noises were irritating, I can’t even sleep for a second. Won’t you let me sleep peacefully? I still have classes tomorrow. What time is it already and why the hell did you just get home at this hour? It’s already dawn! I hope you know that Jacob,” said Haesoo and slapped me in the ass.

“Ah! Noona, don’t! That freaking hurts, I'm sorry!” I screamed as I hide from Clyde and make him my shield with HaeSoo's painful beating.

“Hey! Oy! What a Jacob! Noona-Haesoo, that hurts! I'm not included! Why do I also have to feel sorry for him!” said Clyde as he complain about my elder sister’s beating.

“How can you not be involved? The noise of the two of you is too much, can’t you two talk softly? Why do you still need to shout at this hour of the day! Grr!” said Haesoo and pushed Clyde’s whole face to see my face.

“Come here!” said Noona as she pulled me to the ear.

“Awws! It hurts then!” I shrieked.

“Shut up the fuck up and reduce your noise. You look like a goat being raped,” she said and flicked me on the forehead.

I glared at her because I could feel my forehead was red. After all, Clyde was laughing so hard.

“I'll poke your big eye. What are you saying a while ago that was this big?” Noona said while her eyes widened at me and then later she imitated the Okay sign I made.

“Nothing, Noona! That's nothing!” Clyde said defensively and forcefully pulled me to Hae-soo.

“AH! Fear of getting caught. HAHAHA,” I laughed to myself.

“That's such a big thing!” I said loudly.

“What's that big of a thing?” when Haesoo repeated what I said.

“That’s how big I am. You want to measure, Noona?” I said laughing while looking at Clyde and Hae-soo.

“Stupid! Gross on you. From now on you'll be sleeping by my side, obviously?” said HaeSoo as she squeezed my side. Hae-soo also glared at Clyde.

“Noona!” Clyde and I contradict together.

“Why, you don't want to have a separate bedroom? What miracle are you doing?” said Haesoo as she looked at us meaningfully.

“Hey! Noona, what are you! Are you for real?” I said once slapping her arm inadvertently strengthening.

“Ah, that's it! Are you beating me? Then! This is where I will sleep!” Hae-soo said determinedly and lay down right in the middle of my bed. We were surprised for a few more seconds because Haesoo was already snoozing.

Clyde and I looked at each other.

“It's your fault, you’re so noisy!” he whispered to me and pinch my ass.

I looked at him and then hit him again on his crotch.

“I don't want to be next to your sister, I'll just lay on the floor,” Clyde said as he picked up his pillow.

I took the extra mattress and laid it on the floor.

“Let's just stay here,” I said with a wink while sitting on the mattress I have prepared for him.

“No—“ I was surprised when Haesoo suddenly pulled me, so I unwillingly sat on the bed.

“All right, I'll just take a peek at you from here,” I said and lay down on the bed and moved a little to the right to peek at Clyde.

“Sleep already! You’re a naughty playful babe. Psh,” Clyde said annoyed, and then kissed me on the lips.

“Yes. Alright, I'm going to sleep,” I said and closed my eyes while holding Clyde's hand.

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[Haesoo's P.O.V.]

It was three in the morning when I heard the two fightings, so I couldn't sleep. It's just that Jacob came home again and I don't know if I'll be angry or worried. I didn't want to go and join in the fight between the two of them, so I just let them go earlier.

I was about to fall asleep when I heard Jacob's voice rising. I thought they were fighting again, so I went out of the room and I was right outside their door when I heard what Jacob said.

“Did we have sex when we were in Jeju?!” can't believe what Jacob says.

I just covered my mouth when I heard that. So was Jacob hospitalized? Is it a laceration? Omg!

I didn't knock anymore so I immediately opened their door. I was surprised when I saw the position of Jacob's hand.

Have they done that? Omg! My brother is not a virgin!

I'm the one who admires them because they both deny that something has happened to them. They thought maybe I would report them to Daddy.

If they only knew, I already just gave it up to the boy—to Steven. Just kidding!

“Aish! I was jealous of both of them. Should I contact Steven again?” I whispered to myself while biting my lip.

“Don’t be rude Hae-soo. You promised Dad that you would graduate from college first and then you would go back to that man,” I whispered to myself again as I sat down.

“Why do I have to become a girl? Being a boy is easier, I hope was a male so I'm free to do what I want especially in sex life,” internal hair flip while laughing like a devil.

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[3rd Person’s P.O.V.]


A beautiful maiden wearing a bright and thick sweatshirt along with a short and thin pink skirt dyed paired with a violet beanie.

“Hello, Korea! I'm BACK! With a vengeance,” she said with a bitchy finicky voice.

“How are the babies I left here? Are they still together? After graduation, are they both still alive? Omyghad! I can't wait to see their tombstone!” she said suppressing a scream while drinking her frappe.

“When they're still alive, it just means they're really like those bad weeds,” she said as she stared and watched the whole view of Seoul from the Namsan Tower.

“Young Miss, your daddy is coming. The last thing your Daddy's driver told me was that it was only 10 minutes and they were here to meet you,” said a man, you will notice wearing a formal. This butler's face is undeniable.

“No worries! Vengeance can wait, but my hug for Daddy really can't wait a little longer! I miss him so much!” said the girl in her bitchy finicky voice once again sucked on the straw of her frappe.
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[Clyde’s P.O.V.]
When we arrived at the Doctor's Office, Jacob was immediately asked to take the Physical Exam, and also looked at his past charts about what was happening to his mental health for the past months.

I just watch him and how his Doctor takes charge. It's even funny because sometimes he is tickled by the physical exams that are done on him. That guy is ticklish.

I just can't be bothered because we are in a Mental Hospital and the doctor has her clinic with Physical Exams.

I felt like as I stare at the walls of the hospital, I was surrounded by emotion that I, myself can't understand. I feel that the emotions and unresolved problems of the people in this area are on the same physical plane as mine but I just don't see them.

I am aware that people are very complex especially when it comes to emotions and mental health, so I also can't blame other people if they usually act cold or what. It's annoying for me to go to a place like this because I know in myself that I'm a mentally stable person but the weight when I enter here is a bit unbearable for someone like me.

How I wish I can also help people with mental health problems. I usually go to a psychiatrist annually but that's only at the clinic and not inside the Mental Hospital. I wish my Jacob is fine. I don't know or know about mental health issues but I'm aware of it. I don’t even know what Bipolar, Borderline Personality, Schizophrenia, and others mean but I usually heard in the news that some people who have that commit crimes. I just think, the complexity of a person sometimes really starts in the brain. It was like everything was just in the mindset, but it didn’t always appear like that—because even if you have a healthy mindset and have planned ahead of you, I guess you can still catch mental health issues and become unstable as hell.
“Good afternoon, Ahjassi (young man). You're his guardian now, right? I was informed by Mr. Seo that he and his daughter can't go with Jacob, so you don't need to worry,” said Jacob's psychiatrist then sitting next to me.

“Jacob is asleep in the room now, since it was part of our exam and he sleeps often when he's here,” she said and smiled at me then touched and squeezed my shoulder to give assurance that my boyfriend is fine.

How much do I want to ask his Psychiatrist but how can I ask if I don't know anything about other mental disorders or anything about disorders?

“Doctor, I would like to ask you something—“

“You’re Jacob’s boyfriend aren’t you? Do you notice anything unusual in his behavior?”
I was caught off guard and hadn't finished what I wanted to tell the doctor when she also asked me. I didn’t think she would ask me that either. I was dead silent the whole time I was here because I'm not comfortable being here and I'm also not comfortable asking things regarding Jacob.

“Oh,” said the doctor and awkwardly laughed then spoke again, “earlier, I noticed you that as if you wanted to say something then I was also going to ask you about Jacob, so I asked you too,” she said and smiled again.

I looked at her with my most concerned but terrifying look.

“Should I tell her?” I said to myself while nervously playing with my nails.

“It's fine to tell me what you noticed about him. It will help him more,” she added and flashed her brightest smile.

“I don't know how to ask this because I don't have enough knowledge about mental health. Maybe what I'm going to say might even cause worse. What if I explained it wrong to you, doctor? What if you misdiagnose him because of me?” I ask her while my hands are shaky.

“You have nothing to worry about... Stay calm and everything would be going to be alright. Don't feel anxious and stop thinking that you will make it worst. You're just going to tell me what you notice. I haven't diagnosed him yet,” she said again and got a small notebook on top of her desk.

“Is it possible for a teenager to catch Dementia? Because it was noticeable nowadays that he usually forgets about things and he usually forgets names and where he also goes. I don't have enough knowledge about mental health but I know that what is happening to him is no longer normal. Also, he didn't go home for days and doesn't remember what happened the last time he was so violent to me. He was already hurting me, we didn't fight but he was like so disgusted just upon feeling my presence. I'm also worried because his sister because she also saw how violent he was to me,” I made a long confession to Jacob's psychiatrist.

She was just listing the things I'm saying.

“Is he still saying anything? Or do you remember the weird things he does when you're with him?” she asked me.

“Oh, I remember. Last week, he said that I need to take note of everything he would going to do, for my safety. It's just feels weird because it doesn't seem like he's the one I'm talking to, it's like I'm talking to a man in his 30s because he was treating me like a child. Jacob is not like that but he speaks like Jacob with a different accent,” I said while still thinking about what happened in Jeju. “I also remember that... he was telling a name, claiming that it was his name,” I said and I looked at him as I noticed that she was seriously looking at me while there seemed to be tension.

“Uhmm. Is Jacob taking any medications? Except for the ones I give? Is he getting violent, you said? How often is that,” said the doctor.

“Hmm, it already happened twice and lately he almost literally killed me,” I said and grabbed my neck because I suddenly felt like Jacob was strangling me.

“Are you saying that is your boyfriend claiming someone's name, and it is also the same time that he is being violent with you?” she asked again and was intently listening to me.

I nodded yes to her question.

“You should call me whenever that happens. Then what name is he telling you?” the doctor said and was about to hand me her calling card when a hand suddenly stopped my hand to take it.

“J-Jacob, my hand,” I said in shock when I turned to him. It's because his grip on my wrist is a bit tight ...

“Are you reporting her of what I did to you? Is she your mom? I didn't know your mother was a doctor, nerdy Clyde. I thought you didn't have a mother because she left you. After all, you were like that,” Jacob said while staring at me with his judgmental eyes.

“J-Jacob...” I said as tears build up.

That was so foul. He can't say such a thing... He doesn't even know anything about my mother...

“One more time, calling me with that name. I will cancel you,” he said and let go of my hand.

“You’re overdoing it. What name do you want to be called? Do you like the name Minhyun Seo that you just made up to be called? Okay, fine! If you’re Minhyun Seo! Let's break up! I hate you!” I said crying as I intentionally bump his shoulder and dashed out the door.

I ran out of the Mental Hospital in a fit of rage. I was fucking mad and now I can still see him just leaving the hospital as if he did nothing wrong! Does he love me?! Why didn't he just follow me! Bullshit!
to be continued…
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