I can hear the sound of the thunder, it sounded just like there was rain coming, the environment was getting quite dark as if it was going to be a heavy rain, Mr Peter left almost an hour ago after my mum woke up, i served her some water to drink, she seems to be dehydrated after passing out for a long time, despite just waking up, her face looked so sorry and worried, she complained that she has put me in a tight situation because of her passing out, i was worried because of the situation at first but that wasn't what we have to go into now, she has to have more rest to put herself in other, but the question she asked me haven't still left my mind, i have been so worried since she got back to sleep, she asked me of Rose whereabout, i actually told her that she has gone back home, but that isn't what actually happened, i scared her away, i chased her out with my unthinking words, i was mad at her for trying to console me, for trying to be there for me, what a stupid guy i am, a guy who only cares about himself. i would have gone to their place to check on her but i couldn't, someone has to stay behind and take care of my mum and right now I am the only one at home, so my options aren't more than one, if only Mr Peter was still here, I would have gotten the opportunity that I seek, not to talk of the rainy cloud. there is definitely going to be a heavy rain, so my chances of going there to meet her is very thin. I was just sitting at the parlour doing nothing, with my coffee staring right at me and me staring back. I am even tired of drinking anything right now, I have no appetite to eat either, I was just blank, sitting down, doing nothing, how I wish I could turn things around.
Knock!, knock!!, knock!!!, I heard the sound of the door, who might it be?, i ask myself as I was staring right at the door, maybe Mr Peter has decided to come back or what if it is Rose or Brian?, if it is Rose, then I would be happy to bring her in and explain myself to her, only if she was willing to understand, because I know that my act definitely pissed her off and if it ends up being Brian, then the issue has gotten more worst, no one would give away her sister to a guy and be happy to see her sister return with a shattered heart, she was in one piece when he left her sister to me, he is definitely going to have a fight with me for doing that to her sister, I don't know what I should do right now if it turns out to be him, I think I will have a lot of explaining to do. i gently went to the door, standing there knowing that the other person is out there, what's the worst thing that can happen, i took a deep breath before opening the door. " hello Ben", she said to me, i never planned or expected to see her here, i believe she is the type that understands the situation without questioning, she kind of understand that whatever i do, there might be a reason behind that, Rose tried to comfort me, but i ended up scaring her off, but for Deborah, i don't think that i can ever lose that kind of control. " i never saw you at school today, any reason for your absence?", she asked me, with concern written all over her face, i looked down on the floor, disappointed by everything going on, she cared too much that she even decided to pay me a visit, despite the bad weather, i think i have a lot to tell her, i don't have to hide the situation from her, she is someone i cherish and should actually be the first to get the information about my mum's condition, but two people are now ahead of her. *** some situation made me stay back at home, my mum's health actually, she's suffering from cancer, and by the way she's getting thinner, i don't think she has a long time with her***, i broke down in tears while trying to explain the situation further to her. " you should hold back your tears, she is still alive for now, instead of crying yourself to sleep thinking about when she would be gone forever, why not celebrate her short lifespan and make it something memorable for her, you should make her to enjoy her last days here on Earth ", she said to me, something is off and odd about her speech, Deborah sounds like she isn't surprised or shocked by the information i just shared with her.
*** Tell me Deborah, do you know about this already?***, i asked her, looking at her with a serious look as if i was interrogating her, it looks like i just got her in the box here, she can't seem to say a word, her mouth was shaking as if she was searching for answers to give me, but yet can't make up any, " i asked her not to tell you, and i made her promise ", my mum said behind me, standing right on the door of her bedroom, i can't make up with the information am getting from my mom right now, i was looking at her, happy that she was awake, yet disappointed that she got Deborah involved in this, they have been hiding such information from me, even Deborah, Deborah whom i am willing to share every details of my life with, i looked back at Deborah, then at my mum, i can't stand this any longer, i left them and headed up to my room.