I am still surprised on how i was carried like nothing by somebody, it looks as if i don't have weight, i looked at Rose and saw her still laughing at the incident that just happened, it wasn't funny to me, in fact, it was embarrassing, how another guy managed to fling me away just like the way it happens in movies, turns out that Rose found it funny, if she had looked at me like as if i can't do anything about this, it would really be more embarrassing than right now. i can feel the angle of my lips twitching up in smile, not that the incident is funny to me, no, but Rose's smile is quite contagious that i can't escape from it, she looks more beautiful than she had always been, the smile looks genuine, as if she has no worries bothering her, a free spirit. she stretched her hand for me to grab, so she can get me up. guys have pride which we hardly hide from, i just showed her how weak i was few moments ago, just by the way i was thrown out of the gym, how can i accept her help right now, i have to get up on myself, how can i take a lady's hand for help after embarrassing her moments ago, though i don't know what is going on inside her head, but for me, i am embarrassed at myself for not even trying to resist the guy who threw me off the gym, i got off the ground by myself, cleaning off the dirts on my cloth, Rose has already removed her hand which she offered me to help me get up, i can see a different reaction on her face, as if she was disappointed right now because i didn't accept her offer to help me.
It wasn't really my intention to make her feel bad right now, i just wanted to show her that i can bring myself up, that i am not actually weak as she just saw earlier. the door to the gym house opened again, i was taken aback, thinking that it was the same guy that threw me outside, but it was the lunatic who just made all this to happen, " i saw you flying away, so i decided to come and check on you", Brian said, laughing at me, finding this quite funny just like Rose, *** i wish to ask you something Brian***, i requested from him, " okay, go on, am all ears", my mind has repeated this question so many times in my head, but right now, i no longer know how to ask him, " i asked him to go out with me today, but he said he needed your permission first", Rose told him, with no sign of being shy in her eyes, she asked the question with a bold face like she doesn't care what Brian's permission will bring, " why did he need my permission?", he asked his sister before turning to me, this really wasn't the way i expected this to go, i thought Brian would not agree with this but he proved me wrong, " wow, why are you looking at me that way?, do you need my blessings too?", he asked me, laughing at me, what a psycho, i said in my head but smiling physically because what he just said right now was quite funny indeed, " so, no more barriers, i think?", she asked me, placing both of her hands behind her back as if she was hiding something there, *** i think so***, i replied her with a smile on my face, " what about Deborah?", Brian asked me laughing, *** f**k you man***, i showed him my middle finger and went back inside as i got to wait for Rose to finish whatever she was doing.
The truth is, Rose is charming, something guys can hardly resist, the way she packed her blonde hair on a ponytail makes her look sweet and stunning, though she was dressing casually just like me, but she definitely look like she was a model, she definitely looks outstanding in her outfit, i haven't seen this type of her before, i just can't get tired of peeking at her with the angle of my eye, we was just walking along the road, i still don't know what Rose saw on me, i don't think i can handle someone like her, she's so beautiful that guys we kept passing along the road can't stop staring at her, i really don't know how to treat a lady, my heart is beating on a fast pace that i can't even follow the rythm of the beat, i am breathing a bit faster than i should right now, i can't even look at her right now, though she was standing beside me, i am afraid, period, i can't continue to hide my fear of girls right now, i just felt like i am suffocating right now, i feel her hand on mine, i gently turned at her to see what is happening, to know why she held my hand, she was wearing that her charming beautiful smile that i can't resist, her smile right now really made me feel a bit relaxed, i can feel my heart slowing down on it's fast pace, she gave me a nod with her head, still smiling, she's encouraging me, she's definitely encouraging me, she understands what i am feeling right now, that was probably the reason why she is locking our fingers together now, i have the feeling that things are going to get complicated from now on, i have never looked at a girl like this, looking at a girl and thinking that i have a relationship with her, i don't know this feeling, it still feels quite foreign to me, i thought i would have mastered such feeling like this one, i have always been hanging out with Deborah my entire life, whom i really have something for but this one, this particular feeling is new, new to me.