I came back downstairs already changed. I missed a step which made me almost falling,but thank goodness I didn't. I saw Eros arguing with the lady. She glanced over at me and smirked. Bitch. I walked past both of them until Eros grabbed my arm. His hair was already dishveled probably from running his hands through them. "Don't.you.dare.touch.me" I seethed through gritted teeth glaring at him.
"Please Janet,you said nothing was going to change the way you feel about me." He pleaded softly. And, there was this visible sadness in his eyes that made my heart ache for him, for us. "Then, maybe we both lied." I shrugged. I would have given in but...he hurt me. I shook my head vigorously as more tears came down, then snatched my arm away from his grasp and then left his house...their house. I felt wetness on my cheeks...I really loved him, and I believed he loved me. I hailed a cab and told him the address of Jade, she went to her parents house but she said she would be back today and I hope she is already back.
"We are here." the cab driver said and I handed him a twenty.
I got out of the cab as I walked towards her front door. I rang the doorbell. "Coming!" I heard her shout from inside. She opened the door and then took in my appearance looking shocked. "What hap-" I cut her off by throwing my arms around her and sobbing. She took me inside and made me explain everything to her which made me cry even harder.
"I am going to kill that man!" She sounded angry now.
Since I left Eros's apartment my phone has been ringing and making ding sounds. After jade made me stop crying and using like three boxes of tissue she left for work, though she insisted on staying with me. Going to work was not a problem cause I had  someone who helps me handle things. I have never ever felt so heartbreakon ...well considering I never had a real boyfriend.
And her baby was with her grand parents, so that was not a problem.
The day passes by with me watching some romantic movie and crying once in a while with a bowl of chocolate ice cream in hand. Soon I switched to listening to listening to CAN'T LET GO BY ADELE and reading a sappy book on wattpad. Everything I does reminds me of him. Why can't he just disappear? Jade called to check on me, to make sure i was doing fine like she said.
I finally slept off on the couch with my head phone over my head, when I heard the front door open. I sat up and saw Jade walking in with groceries in hand. "Let me help you with that." I said as I collected some bags from her and placed them on the kitchen counter. "What do you want to eat?" She asked as she placed more bags on the counter "I think I'm just going to go to bed now." I said giving her a sad smile,my eyes are probably already red and puffy "things will get better,alright?" She held my shoulders and then pulled me in for a hug. I sniffled and nodded "yh." I said softly and then moved away and then she smiled at me.
"Good night." I called as I walked up to the guest room she told me I could stay in.
I picked up my phone when I sat on the bed. It had various missed calls and unread messages and voicemails from Eros. There were also some from Emma, he probably told his sister what happened. I read one of the messages from Jade.
  Call me ASAP.
If he was married that means his family knew all this while. Why would they accept me if he was already married.
Maybe you should have just wanted for him to explain to you. My subconscious taunted.
I debated on calling Emma for about a minute or two my hand hovering over her name. I finally clicked on the 'call' button and she picked up on the first ring. "Hey, Emma it is me." obviously she knows it's you dumbass.
"I am so sorry Janet. What did my dumbass brother do?" She asked as she sighed on the phone.
"He did not tell you?" I asked her as I clutched my pillow closer to me, "He would not say anything." she said and I heard her husband talking to her on other side. I stared at the ring he gave me and felt a tug at my chest.
"How about we meet up?" She asked hopefully. I wanted to decline and stay here watching movies and taking ice cream but instead, "where?" I asked as I ran my hands through my hair which is already tangled.
"I'll text you the address." she said.
"okay..and jade please dont let him know about us meeting. I'm not ready to talk to him." I said my eyes already drooping close. "It's okay, I understand" she said and I nodded then realized she can't see me.
"Good night." I said.
"Night." she replied as she hung up.
I really miss him. I remembered all that happened yesterday then to this morning. I was so happy by this time yesterday but now, I'm here my heart trying to recover from this heartbreak. Always be prepared for the tears when you fall in love, because tears are part of the gift of love. I read from somewhere but then I was so confused. Now, I really understand all what that means.
I clicked on one of the voicemails Eros sent. I'm so sorry Janet. Please come back. I am a piece of shit but let me explain to you. Does this mean we are breaking up? Please don't break up with me Janet. I love you so much. You are the first woman I'll ever love. I heard his voice from my phone and he was drunk because of the way he was slurring. Why does it hurt this bad?
Love can a leave a memory no one can steal but it can also leave  a pain that no one can heal...probably apart from Eros. The pain Eros left in my heart, is so huge for me to take in. I finally fell asleep thinking of what awaits me tomorrow.