It's been a week since I got the stress symptoms as I supposed and also a week since Alex travelled. It's a week more before he would return home.
I was trying so much and so hard not to miss him, but it was just near to zero. I spent more time with the kids after work and used that opportunity to stay away from thinking too much. We did a lot of video calls with Alex all night before retiring to sleep, and it was always fun.
I could remember the second day after Alex travelled, that faithful night, I and the kids had a video call with my husband, their father. All of a sudden, they reported that I have been acting a sick and needed to go see a doctor. They complained that I was trying to keep it away from them because I still think they were kids, which of course they still were.
I was somewhat infuriated about that, because I had intentionally kept it from Alex, with the motive of letting him know when he returns, so he won't be distressed or troubled about me over there and probably get distracted from work by my situation.
I came to the rescue, I explained to Alex that I slept for more hours because I was literarily very tired due to the stress load at work, which was true but not totally true because I didn't mention the fact that I had this dizzy spells for sometime. I just told him that we will talk about it when he comes back home from his trip.
The other time, I did not know that these kids had a chat with their Dad without letting me know, without my consent. They complained that I really needed to go for a check up, to know exactly what was wrong with me.
I don't even have time for that. I had a lot to do that waste my whole day trying to fix some unimportant things which didn't even need fixing.
I confronted them for their ill manners which they displayed, which didn't look as though I ever taught them at all.
"You two do not have the right whatsoever to go behind my back to discuss delicate issues with your Dad. Who taught you that nonsense? So, I gave you access to the household phone and you think you can go against me? I yelled at them in deep anger.
They were so shocked and surprised at the way I scolded them. It was actually the first time I was being this harsh in them.
"Mom, we are sorry. We were only trying to make you go to the hospital and you didn't listen to us, so we had call Dad, since he's the closest ."
"No, you should have asked me first of all, before going ahead to call him on phone. Don't you guys see that you passed the wrong message to him. I'm really angery at both of you now, I'm really angry." I scolded them angrily.
By this time, as usual, Marvela was shaking. She was no longer interesting in the drama that was unfolding, she was scared of what might happen next of it.
"Mom, I'm sorry. We promise that would never ever happen again, please mommy." Marvin pleaded with me. "But Mom, we didn't do any bad, we were only trying to help out, we thought that Dad could convince you since you decided not to listen to us." He explained, frowning his face.
"Honey, you two listen, you can go on telling your Dad every single thing that happens at home, especially this case of me being sick. For your information, I am not sick at all, I was only stressed out. You only made your Dad so worried about me that he stopped focusing on the reason he travelled. What's that the right thing to do?
"No ma'am, it is not." Marvela answered, clutching her two hands together, so she doesn't shiver.
"Alright Marvela, I am not planning on punishing you, so stop acting so childish, I complained.
"Yes Mommy." She answered, cleaning the tears on her eyes. "I have cleaned it now." She added.
"All of it? I asked.
"Yes, all of it."
"Good."
In summary, Alex made me go to the hospital for several checkups. I patiently await the result of the diagnosis which wasn't out yet. I totally expect a positive result on my test paper though. I silently prayed that it doesn't come out bad. I didn't get a promotion, a top notch promotion I have been craving and working for just to let it go or be abandoned. That wasn't gonna happen, won't let that happen at all.
Though, I stopped having that dizzy spells, weak feelings and nauseous sensation after my long sleep that night, but I felt I wasn't totally strong. I guess vacation to a foreign country might do, maybe that could ease me of already accumulated stress over the time. I deserve a vacation I must say. I have tried, I can't wait for Alex to return so we can plan that together.
After the issue I had with the kids, when I realized they had snitched on me and called their father on my behalf, Alex had never stopped calling me to make sure that I was okay. I almost stopped work to apply for a sick leave, because he complained that I wasn't taking enough care of myself to his satisfaction.
I had to dissuade him from making me do anything silly. Not forgetting that whatever I do will affect the company at large and I will have myself to blame.
Fortunately for me, he listened to my plea and allowed me continue, with the promise that I will go to the hospital for several checkups and tests of which I need to send him the results when it is out. Of course, I agreed to that claim, I didn't have a choice not to anyway, so I sticked it.