SELENE 'POV
"Jane, don't you really have a relationship with Kent? As in nothing? As in?" I asked Jane who was eating today as we lay here in the school garden.
It’s been a week since Kent and I dated. And do you know what happened after that date? Nothing. We became friends, but I thought we were taking the next level of our relationship!
Maybe I’m just too assuming... really.
"You know, Selene, if you weren't just my best friend, I would have pulled your hair by now," she replied, annoyed, and even glared at me.
"Why?" I asked. "I'm just making sure. Who knows?" I was frustrated when I said that.
He turned to me as he frowned. "Selene, it's been one week. It's been one week since you dreamed about Kent and me." Even in her voice, it was immediately obvious how stressed she was. "This is what I was talking about. Why do you always dream about me when you're taking your sleeping pills, huh?"
I pout and I just started to munch on my food. This is my comfort hobby. To eat.
"Jane," I called to her again.
"Oh?"
"Don't you really have a relationship with Kent? As in? Or haven't you been lovers before, huh?" I know how many times I've asked her that, but I don't know why I'm so bothered now!
"Nope. We're not in a relationship... I don't even know him."
She looks annoyed but her eyes say otherwise. When I stared at it, I also feel the sadness she is going through.
Weird. But why?
I just ignored her and ate again when she suddenly called me.
"Selene."
"Why?"
"Aren't you going to mourn?"
I wondered. And where shall I mourn? Did someone die?
"And why should I mourn?" I asked.
"Because you didn't win the... spelling contest." She seemed hesitant to say about it, but she still said it.
I chuckled. Why would I mourn just because of that? There are many more contests out there that I can join.
"Nope!" I increased the tone of my voice. "It's not a big deal if I lose. That's really part of life. And at least, Kent and I are friends now!" I added as I spoke to her.
But honestly, I’m a little sad. Just a little bit, huh? Because my dream is to really win a scholarship so that I can help my parents with our expenses. But, what else can I do? Past is past. I know that there are more opportunities to come.
"It's good, then," she replied. "So, what's next for that? Lovers already?" she asked in a teasing tone while slightly prodding my waist.
"Hey, stop that-"
My speech was interrupted when suddenly, a man appeared in front of me. It's a man in a jersey and with a towel hanging around his neck. That was none other than Kent. He was very sweaty but he was still hot in my eyes.
Are there really men which were born to be this handsome?
"Selene," he greeted me with a smile and extended out his hand to me so I could stand up. Jane and I are just sitting on the floor today.
I immediately reached for it and he pulled me upright.
"How's the practice?" I asked, smiling.
"It's fine, I guess," he answered. "You? How are you? I've heard the news. You didn't win," he said so casually that I felt a little pain in my heart, but I chose to just laugh at it.
"That's okay with me. No big deal." I even smiled too wide at him just so he could see that I was okay, but he just frowned as he bit his lower lip.
That's why he's really good. He knows how I feel.
He knew that even if I told myself I was okay, but deep inside, I was hurt because I didn't win. I feel that all my effort is still lacking even though I have given everything I can. My opponents are also smart. I couldn't do anything about it.
"Deny more, Selene. You're so obvious." He looked at Jane who was very busy munching on our food today. "Jane, let me borrow your best friend first," he even added.
Jane and Kent are pretty close after I introduced them to each other. That's great! They get along! They have the same temperament. They always bully me. They are evil creatures. But even if they are like that, I really love those two.
However, my dream last time still bothers me.
"Sure," she immediately agreed. Not even a second thought! "Don't even give that woman back."
"Awful, Jane! You're giving me away?" I shouted frowning. This woman is really bad. So bad.
"Love you
I frowned before Kent pulled me up the stairs. But I noticed that they looked at each other differently. Seems to be angry without knowing it. Weird. Maybe it's because they have the same personality, so sometimes they get annoyed with each other.
I looked around when I realized where we were already. We were on the rooftop.
"Oh? What are we going to do here?" I asked in astonishment.
"We'll make a baby," he replied and winked at me.
"Stupid. Do you want me to kick you?"
Sometimes I really can't talk to this man politely. Heck.
"Don't cuss," he said in an irritated tone before he sat down on the floor with me. That's right, he's with me because he's holding my hand. "Your answer is obvious. We'll relax for a while, probably."
"Ah, okay."
We were silent for a few minutes and that was okay with me. I was used to silence, but soon he took his phone out of his pocket and handed me one of his earphones.
“Let’s listen to a song,” he said.
I just nodded. "I'll just take a nap. Wake me up when it's almost time. Don't forget," I said before I leaned on his shoulder to sleep. He didn't answer because he couldn't do anything.
We were so close after that day, but our label stayed the same. As friends.
I put the earphone in my ear and it started playing, but I was surprised at the song he chose. Why might Rocketeer be the song he chose?
I immediately remembered Eya and Cross in the Diary of Panget. I'm reading that book on volume 4 now. That story is really thrilling. Even though Cross is cold, he loves Eya very much.
I looked at Kent, and my eyes widened when I saw him staring at me. I immediately took my eyes off him and just pretended to sleep even though I had completely lost my drowsiness.
It's just fun to think that the man I dreamed of then, is next to me now. It's just that it hurts, I still dream of being with him up to this day. Even though he's close to me, it seems like he's still hard to reach.
Kent, why it is so hard to reach you?
"Kent," I called to him as I closed my eyes. Another song is playing and I don't know that so I don't listen to it much.
"Oh?"
"Why did you choose to play rocketeer?"
He turned to me and stared at me with an expression I could not read. "Because I want..."
"I want?" I asked. What is it?
"No. Nevermind."
I just frowned but I didn't force him. I even thought he would say he likes me!
KENT'S POV
Because I want to tell you that I can do all things as long as it's for you.
That's what I wanted to say, but I chose to keep quiet. I know she's frowning now because she wanted to know what I'm going to say, but I'd rather keep my feelings to myself.
But too painful.
"Fuck..." I gasped when I felt a strange pain coming from my heart.
She looked at me before her face became alert because probably, I look pale. "Kent, are you okay?"
I can't breathe. And I don't know the reason why she needs to ask me if I'm okay. Obviously not. I need to get out of here but I don't have the strength. She will know my situation and I don’t want that to happen.
"G-Go..." I tried to push her away, but soon my vision began to darken.
"Help!" And that was the last I heard from Selene before I completely lost consciousness.