It was already 7 in the morning Brian then got out of bed and he opened the curtains in his room. The sun's rays dazzled his eyes. Not long after he sat up rubbing his eyes, which were still sleepy. Today he is on duty the next morning he goes to the bathroom to get ready to go to work. After he finished taking a shower not long after that he opened his cellphone and there was a message from his uncle telling him to meet him tonight after he got home from work. Brian then replied to the message and he continued his preparation activities. Not long after he went to work. On the way he had visited a bakery and bought some croissants because he had not had time for breakfast. Accompanied by sweet food, he also bought coffee and enjoyed it for a few minutes at the bakery before finally heading to the bus stop to catch the bus. After he came out of the bakery then walked a bit until he arrived at a bus stop. There were a lot of people waiting for the bus and like him he also seemed to be in a hurry. It didn't take long for the bus to arrive and Brian immediately got on the bus. After he boarded the bus, he accidentally encountered a woman sitting in the back seat, reading a book while listening to earphones. Brian, who seemed to have seen the woman for some time, kept looking at her. And Brian sat in the middle seat because he felt he had to sit there. Brian, who was still curious about the woman, then turned to look at the woman again. He soon finished reading his book and as soon as Brian looked at him again he also looked at Brian. Embarrassedly Brian stopped glancing at the woman until he finally got off the bus. It turned out that the woman was also down at the same place as Brian. He then left quickly and Brian didn't have time to say hello. Because the time was already 8 o'clock he then quickly went to work and when they got there they would already be preparing for a change of service. Brian then joined them and he took part in the service change ceremony which they often do. Not long after Brian left the room and he had to do his job. After that he went to check on the patients in each room together with sister Hana herself went to the first post-surgery room where the patients were already waiting for her arrival and she warmly greeted them.
"Good morning doc," said the patient
"Good morning. Now I'll check you first, okay?" Brian said politely to the patient. He performs a physical examination of the patient
"Can I go home already?" ask the patient
"Because your condition is still not recovering, it would be better if you still rest here," said Brian, bringing back his stethoscope. Sister Hana was busy recording her nursing care.
"In that case, okay."
"Since I'm done so I'll excuse myself first."
"Yes doc."
Then Brian and Sister Hana left the room and now he is going to the next room. The ongoing examination aims to see the progress of the patient from day to day and this is his job. In this hospital, there are a lot of postoperative patients and also patients who will undergo surgery. Because of that he had to work even harder, plus there were very few surgeons here. Brian who is an expert in the field of surgery himself always goes through times like this where he has to do his duty relentlessly to save the lives of others. Now he went to the next room for another examination and continued to the last postoperative patient room. After he finished checking everything he then returned to his room to prepare the patient for surgery 30 minutes later. He, who is still in the room, is currently looking at the data on the condition of the patient to be treated. He saw from his data that the patient had heart failure and he had to do a heart donor to survive. He has been suffering since 4 months ago and after being examined he had to undergo a surgical procedure and that was one way to save his life. The patient's family is still considering it and buying time. Brian then advised the patient's family not to slow down the decision and that would only make it difficult for him. After listening to various suggestions from Brian, the patient's family finally agreed to the procedure. They had already prepared the organ to be transplanted into the heart of an adult man who had just died in an accident and his body before being buried had his heart removed by a surgeon who was none other than Brian's senior here, his name was Gerald. In desperate circumstances the patient's family agreed to the organ trade because they really like money that's what made Gerald make the offer. Now the heart is in the laboratory and will be transplanted into Brian's patient. After the patient was transferred to the operating room there he lay on the operating table praying for his life. Brian was then put under anesthesia and after he was unconscious the surgical procedure was started. The doctors who do this work they do not hesitate to cut open the patient's chest and begin to remove the black heart. The disease he was suffering from was terrible enough now it's time to end that suffering by having a new, healthier heart. Gently cut it with a scalpel and then the heart which is in the plastic filled with water has been brought from the laboratory and will begin to be installed. Requires high concentration and perseverance, this is the stage that requires the most patience. Not long after, the heart was removed from the patient's body and stored in a stainless steel container, then the diseased heart was returned from the plastic and began to slowly put it together. Brian started to sweat on his forehead and was then wiped by the nurse who was in the operating room helping them. Then after the heart was attached they then sewed back the skin of the breast flesh that they had split slowly but surely until it was finally finished being sewn. The stitches are very annoying but this will mean a lot to the patient. His body and several medical devices which were full of blood were then removed and cleaned. So that the patient who sleeps with a clean state.
"Finally done," Brian said with a sigh behind his face mask.
"Good job everyone," said Gerald
Not long after that they all left the operating room and took the patient to be transferred to his room. The first operation was successful and now they will continue with the next operation which is a child who has a tumor on his neck and he has been in pain for the rest of his life. The patient had long wanted to undergo surgery to remove the tumor, but because the surgery was quite expensive, he had to endure this pain for some time. Now she will confidently carry out the procedure and hope she lives a healthy and happy life like the other children. He is a junior high school student and he has not been going to school for a long time due to his deteriorating condition and he just lay in his house until he was finally admitted to this hospital. His parents only lived with his grandmother because his father and mother had long left him since he was a baby. Due to his poor condition he had to endure suffering with his illness and try to stay alive. Now that he has changed into surgical clothes, not long after the doctor took him to the operating room and right under the lamp he lay down until he finally fell asleep under anesthesia. The doctor prepared a new device and soon the surgical procedure began. They all worked hard to treat this child and Brian was no exception. Surgery on the neck which is considered very challenging, they are able to do it as a professional surgeon. Now the nagging lump of flesh on his neck has been removed and the doctor is starting to slowly stitch the wound until it is completely sutured. After that proceed with the final stage of this procedure until it is finished. You can imagine before he must have felt what kind of pain because he was only a child of course this was very torturous for him but now it won't be because it's over. After the operation, the doctor took the patient to the inpatient room for further treatment. Brian who is now going to the sterilization room himself then washes his hands even though he previously used a handscoon but he still washes his hands. Then it was seen he went to a room and there was a medicine room he went there to take some medicine which he would give to the previous patient who asked for painkillers.
"Brian."
"Oh Alex you're not busy?"
"Not bad because right now I don't have too many patients. How about you it looks like you're overwhelmed?”
"No, this is just normal."
"Is that true? Wow, you're really great."
The two of them were now talking as they walked and there was Brian's room. Then he went to his room followed by Alex who then he sat casually while continuing to chatter. He was indeed quite relaxed compared to other doctors and also he was only one year older than Brian which was why the two of them seemed close even from the first meeting. There are a lot of old doctors here and they don't really look like what kind of person they are, it can only be speculated that they are not much different from the head doctor. Brian was new here but his presence was quite welcome.
Back to his activities he is now treating patients in the operating room. Now is the third operation performed today. With a feeling he was used to whatever pressure he did. The patient this time is an old man who has cancer he always suffers because at an old age he is affected by this malignant disease. He was forced to undergo a surgical procedure in order to recover. Previously he was a bakery owner who always worked hard for his business. Everything he had struggled for got good results but it all suddenly became a disappointment because he had terminal cancer which made him seem to be on the verge of death. Seeing that his condition was getting worse day by day, he ended up lying in the hospital using various medical devices, namely tubes that covered his body. Every time he opened his eyes as if to ask the world when all this would end he hoped that someone would take him out of his misery. As long as he prayed to the almighty it was not immediately answered. But with Brian he became more excited to live life. Now the old man was about to let go of the burden that was carrying him and becoming his obstacle. Brian immediately took him to the operating room to undergo the operation, he had to do several examinations before and finally he was in the room that would determine his life or death.
Mixed feelings welled up within him and continued to linger until he was finally knocked unconscious due to the effects of the drug. Brian along with the other doctors were performing surgery and in the process they had no problems. At first they thought it would be over quickly but it turned out to be unexpected. His condition was getting worse, the cancer in his body was already very severe. There was no way he could survive with his previous condition. Brian and the doctors are working hard to deal with this little by little this man's condition is arguably near death. After the cancer in his body was successfully treated but the person's heart rate monitor was no longer there. It was the first time in his life that he had always done his best to save other people's lives and now here on the operating table that was taking place everyone was feeling disillusioned with themselves and Brian was no exception. He immediately felt empty because so far he had never failed in solving problems like this. But reality answers it. The elderly male patient who had terminal cancer died during this operation. Brian, who witnessed this, fell silent without saying anything and so did the other doctors, they immediately covered the patient with a cloth. Not long after that they immediately took the patient to be put in a coffin and after that people who were his family were informed that the man had died suddenly made them sad and then cried full of emotion on his face not long after his body was taken by them to be buried in the cemetery general domino city. Brian, who was still feeling his inner pressure then collapsed and was just blankly silent. Alex who saw this then tried to make Brian speak.
"Hey Brian, are you okay?" said Alex to Brian
"It seems that he feels depressed by this incident," said Gerald who also participated in the operation procedure
"What? what really happened?”
"The patient we were trying to save him died."
"Only that?"
"Right."
"Hey come on it's not your fault you shouldn't be like this," said Alex who was still trying to make Brian speak. Suddenly his face was different as usual he looked full of pressure. Alex who saw it was just amazed and kept trying to cheer him up but all that failed.
“This… impossible,” said Brian
"What do you mean impossible? Come on, you shouldn't be like this, he died because it was his end."
"The death?" Brian said while looking at Alex with a scary look, his frustrated face continued to appear.
"Eh?"
Alex who was surprised by Brian's gaze then he fell silent and no longer spoke to him, just waiting for himself to feel better than before. Now they were both sitting on the lounger. Brian was still frustrated and not long after he went to his room and he was there sitting in his chair with a blank look on his face. The situation is out of control. Alex, who was still there, then asked his senior why he had come like that and Alex looked for the senior.
"Master Gerald," said Alex
"Yes, What is up?"
"That's about what happened today, I have something to ask you."
"Please I will answer it."
"Why is he like that? weren't you there too? And what really happened?”
"As I said earlier, the patient we were supposed to help and it failed was just that, the rest was nothing and again things like that should have been common on the operating table."
"Oh, I see. It's not that I don't trust you it's just that is it true? So what made him like that?”
"You don't seem to know him very well."
"What?"
"It's only natural that he's a new kid who is known to be competent and never makes mistakes."
"I don't know about that."
"Just let him get used to it later. Not everything happens as expected and that was today."
"Then I'll excuse myself."
Alex then left the senior named Gerald. he is indeed a surgeon who has worked here for a long time and certainly has a lot more experience. Brian, who is now pensive in his room, still feels frustrated because of this incident. This was so shocking to him that he almost lost control of himself and again he was a doctor he should have been able to save that person instead of killing him. Mixed feelings haunted him and the clock still showed 4 pm there was still time to finish work. He continued to feel guilty and again he was worse than before. Alex realized that he then came to Brian's room and saw him looking confused. It was hard to believe how he looked like someone who had just been dumped.
"Alex, how long have you been there, apparently?" said Brian with a sad face
"I just came."
"You?"
"Yes? If you still feel guilty then regret it later now you still have to do a good job.”
"Why? This happened?"
"Oh my god you're here."
Now Brian has arrived at his house even though before he was very frustrated even when on the bus he was just pensive with a languid face and filled with emptiness making himself very sad. He is now lying in bed, haunted by the tragedy that tore his emotions apart. He was mentally shaken where he felt a feeling that made him feel guilty for taking the old man's life. Although he should have also known the fact that the old man was indeed in a dying state that's why he wanted surgery. But all that she didn't realize and just thought that the man would recover and then live happily ever after was a cliché. In a different place in a public cemetery where the old man named Charlos will be buried. There all his family and closest people were there to witness the funeral ceremony which lasted for 2 hours. Not long after, it started to rain, pouring down on the funeral of the people who were there and they took umbrellas because the weather was cloudy from the start. The departure of lord Charlos seemed to make the sky sad. After the funeral ended Brian then came there before he was looking for information about that person and now he was there carrying a white lily. The rain continued to fall even harder Brian was still standing there and then he burst into tears.
"I'm sorry," he said
At that time Brian did feel very guilty for the patient's departure because earlier he had promised to save his life. Now he is gone from this world. At that time Brian also apologized to his family before he finally returned home. On the way home he saw someone standing in front of the flower shop he was wearing an umbrella and then Brian walked towards that person and it turned out to be a girl he had previously met. They both looked at each other and the woman went straight into Brian's shop then went into the shop and he saw her buying a bouquet of white roses. Brian who saw it then he tried to get up the courage to greet him.
"Sorry miss."
"Yes you called me?"
"May I know your name? Sorry if this is rude because we've met before."
"Yurian."
"Eh?"
“My name is Yurian Frances. Just call Yurian."
"What?" said Brian who was surprised to hear the name
'Couldn't he be that famous pianist? It's hard to believe I've never seen his face as an adult,' Brian thought
"Why are you surprised like that?"
"Oh not only. I am your fan."
'Eh why am I saying nonsense like this,' Brian thought
“I see, thank you,” Yurian said with a smile and then he left. Brian who was still standing there as if he had just been struck by lightning he was very surprised.
Brian also then left from there and he headed to his apartment not long after he arrived in front of his apartment and immediately opened the door. As soon as he got to his house he then took the wine that was in the fridge he quickly poured the wine and drank it. He was still feeling depressed by all this he then sat on the sofa with a pensive face imagining the old man's face he had a hard time accepting reality and kept blaming himself even though this was past his mind was filled with guilt as if he killed him.